the unspoken

Happy New Year

2009-12-31T21:34:00.003Z

Just a short post to wish you all a very Happy New Year. And to tell that I'm still alive and kicking... well not so much with the kicking but yeah, pretty much alive. Nothing to say here, for today at least, but I'll be back to write a few things. A lot has happened this year but I'm not gonna bore you with details. Besides, some things are better left unsaid, in my opinion. So I'll keep my tale to myself thank you very much. I'll see you again next year!!! =) Oh everyone, I hope everything you wished for came true and whatever it is that you wish for next will come true as well. ;p

Of feeling anxious and Parachute

2009-09-10T05:49:00.005+01:00

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Now playing: Parachute - Stuck In The Middle
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So get this, to kill time during this long, ardous yet fulfilling fasting month, I did something I never thought I'd do before. Sit in front of telly for hours *okay this one, I've done before* watching TENNIS ... ... ... *cricket sounds* Okay this is the time when you'd laugh out loud until you're rolling on your back and pee in your pants. Like seriously, a "foot stool" like me watching tennis? Can it get any weirder than that? The world is gonna end people! Say your prayers now! Okay I'm exaggerating here. Its not like I'm a virgin when it comes to it. I HAVE watched the sport before, just not really into it. Enough to know who won titles, who's number one and of course, enough to know who Roger Federer and the Williams sisters are *Okay that's pretty lame, they're like basic general knowledge nowadays* Anyway, like I said, I watched the sport but not intensely. Its actually pretty inevitable since everyone in my family watches sports religiously, except for yours truly obviously. So this year I kinda join in the family bandwagon

cheering for our personal picks. It all started with the recent Wimbledon Open a few months back, the one where Federer defeated Roddick in that memorable final match if you still remember. That one held me at the edge of my seat! Such intense energy from both of them. Roddick trying to claim his first ever Wimbledon title and Roger trying to break Pete's reign of the most Grand Slam titles. With so much at stake, Roddick eventually fell short but not without a fight. He fought hard, he fought well but luck was not on his side that day An amazing match nonetheless *by my standard at least* I was actually rooting for Andy Murray, on principle, because he's-a-Scotsman-I'm-studying-in-UK crap. I know, lame isn't it? But he got game all right and he's currently no 2 in the world. Besides the last Brits who won Wimbledon was some 70 years ago, so I was intrigued to see if Murray can break the record, which he didn't. He lost in the semifinals to the other Andy. So I stay tuned and watch another Andy's journey to the finals. Oh well, there's always next year.

Anyway, Wimbledon's over and now on to the US Open. This time, I watched most of the matches, right from the first round keeping up with the top seeded player. So I was really pumped even though my knowledge of tennis is very limited. There's first for everything kan? But all I got was frustration one after another! All my top seeds got punked as early as the first rounds (read: Marat Safin!) But the biggest upset came in the form of John Isner! He was the reason my calculation went kaput! He beats Roddick. See, if everything goes as planned, Roddick would meet Federer again and I was so looking forward to see another duel like the one during their last Wimbledon match. But its not fair to blame it on Isner on a very unprofessional and unsportsmanlike basis like he-beats-Roddick-so-I-hate-him kinda thing. I have to say, he was in a really good form at that time, Isner that is, because he put up a great fight and Roddick too! It was a great match. Roddick was down by two sets but he kept his game up and managed to get to the final set but eventually lost in a tie break. Intense and hot too! But ~sigh, now I have absolutely no one to look forward too. Murray got pawned two days ago. I wasn't home cause I went to my grandma's house, which is a relief because I don't have to watch the losing game. Anyhow, I look forward to the finals. Its gonna be another Nadal-Federer showdown again I guess, seeing how Soderling failed to break his 11 consecutive lost streak to Federer this morning.

Regarding the parachute in the title, no I'm not doing any sports with parachute if that's what you think now that I watch sports *A sport to be precise*, it is the name of a band I've been listening these past few weeks. I was in the car when I first heard their song; She is Love so I rushed back home to Google the band. Actually, I Googled *or Binged* part of the lyrics cause I didn't quite catch the name of the band when the DJ said it. I got the name of the band and the song title but being a cheapskate that I am, I look for their album torrent and download the whole album! *who buys music when torrent files are so super abundant on the net?!* Anyway, I have to say, their music is kinda good. Its like a mellow version of Jimmy Eats World. I'm seriously recommending this album to those who love bands like Maroon 5 and Lifehouse *erkk???* So give it a try, I particularly heart their Blame It On Me! *chuckles*

And before I forgot, Happy Fasting to all muslims out there! Ramadhan Kareem And may I also wish a Happy Merdeka Day to us Malaysians! Hope I'm still not too late. 52 years and still standing, looking good huh?

~Bye

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Now playing: Parachute - She Is Love [Full Band Version]
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P/S: Excessive use of emoticons. I know. Just in the mood

P P/S: Off to buy some pelita. Yay mlm ni nak pasang pelita!!!!

Of wallet and blog

2009-08-17T18:47:00.005+01:00

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Now playing: Collective Soul - She Said
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Erkk I think I may have gotten the wrong concept of blogging. You're supposed to keep updating your post, not TEMPLATE! Forgive me but I recently just found out the wonders of GIMP. Coupled with Google, these two can make me go all night poking and prodding my blog, and all those wonderful tutorial aren't really helping either. Anyway, I'll probably stop in a few weeks. I like to think of this as one of my usual 'creative' spell. See, I'm not really that creative with anything so this brief moment of spell is kinda welcoming and I know I'll just go out of it in a few weeks. Since I can't really draw, most of the stuff here are picked from some websites and all I did was just tweaked the image and code here and there. *Kinda like plagiarism???* Not to worry, I'll include all the links later.

Anyway, the worst thing happened to me last Friday! My wallet got stolen!!!! I think it happened while I was struggling to get into Komuter at Mid Valley that evening. It was about 6.30 pm so you can imagine how massive the crowd was. Everyone was pushing everyone to get into the train. You know how Komuter have two types of train, the one with a couple of doors along a carriage and the one with two doors each at the other end of a carriage? I tried to get into the latter and boy, was that the stupidest decision I made all day long! I could've just wait for another train but my patience get the best of me that day! And that wasn't the only stupid thing I did that day. For whatever reason, I decided to put my wallet in my back pocket after I bought the ticket! I usually put it inside my sling bag together with my phones but I didn't put it in that time! Arghh!!! No use fretting over things passed. Lucky for me there's only a couple of RM 10 inside and unlucky for me, my debit card is inside! I called the bank and ask for replacement already but they refuse to send the card to me here. They have to send the card to mu house in Sheffield and I have to arrange for someone to send the card to me myself. ~sigh. Mendokusai na~

So that's it for a qucikie update. Trying to finish my summer read. Read Orhan Pamuk's Snow but stopped after a few chapters. That book is too . . . . . frank that it scares me. I need to really concentrate to get the whole thing. Bye!

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Now playing: Celine Dion - Then You Look At Me
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Movie goers = No life??

2009-08-13T18:50:00.004+01:00

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Now playing: Matt White - Best Days
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SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. Copy this list, go to your own facebook account or blog or website, paste this as a note. Then, mark X's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 6

( ) The Princess Bride
( ) Anchorman
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 10

(x) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 10 + 6 = 16

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 16 + 9 = 25

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 25 + 7 = 32

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG
Total so far: 32 + 9 = 41

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 41 + 6 = 47

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 47 + 7 = 54

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 54 + 7 = 61

(x) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
(x) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean’s Thirteen
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremecy
(x) Bourne Ultimatum
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 12 + 61 = 73

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
(x) Rush Hour 4
Total so far: 73 + 9 = 82 *Getting closer...*

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 82 + 8 = 90 *Its official. I have no LIFE!!!*

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider-Man 3
(x) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Jason Goes To Hell
(x) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) Shrek 3
Total so far: 16 + 90 = 106

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 106 + 3 = 109

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and The Crystal Skull
Total so far: 109 + 7 = 116 *this survey is too long!*

( ) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
(x) Highlander
(x) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 116 + 3 = 119

( ) The Jacket
(x) Kung Fu Hustle
(x) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 119 +5 = 124

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
(x) The Incredible Hulk
( ) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
( ) 28 days later
( ) 28 Weeks Later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total so far: 124 + 6 = 130

( ) Kill Bill vol 1
( ) Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
(x) Kingdom of Heaven
(x) Kung Fu Panda
( ) The Express
( ) Igor
(x) Toy Story 1
(x) Toy Story 2
(x) Dumbo
(x) Peter Pan
(x) Power Rangers: The Movie
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
(x) City of Embers
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 130 + 9 = 139

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Star Wars: The Clone Wars
(x) The Game Plan
(x) The Holiday
(x) The Dark Knight
(x) Batman Forever
(x) Batman Begins
(x) Batman and Robin
(x) Batman
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
(x) The Mummy
(x) The Mummy Returns
(x) The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor
(x) Wall-e
(x) Wanted
( ) Virgin Territory
( ) Untraceable
( ) Transformers
(x) The Kingdom
Total so far: 139 + 20 = 159

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
( ) Red Dragon
( ) Silence of the Lambs
( ) Hannibal

Grand total = 162

Uh-uh. 162 out of 200+ movies. 85 has no life, 162 is what, twice a pathetic? ;p This quiz is actually fun. Reminds you of the old movies you used to watch when you're little

A Blue Bird...

2009-08-05T20:42:00.004+01:00

You say if you could fly, you’d never come back down
You only have eyes for that blue, blue sky
You’ve yet to learn what sadness is
And are now just grasping what pain is like
Even the feelings I have for you
Must be expressed in words
As you awake from a dream into an unknown world
Spread your wings and take flight!

A translation from Ikimonogakari's Blue Bird. Featured as one
of Naruto's opening theme. Man, the Japs sure know how to make good music

~Taa

Blog Entry 2.0

2009-07-17T17:08:00.004+01:00

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Now playing: Michelle Branch - Tuesday Morning
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Note :

This entry was written on the 17th of July but remained as draft due to some technical problem. More on this later.

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I need to talk, get my mind of some things. I'm having a terrible headache now thinking of it so I need to ramble about things that are completely irrelevant to the issues that's been bothering me these past few days. So here goes:

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Ookay! How hard is it to talk about random things? Surely such trivial task shouldn't pose so much as a problem kan? ~sigh. Anyway, I'm watching HBP tomorrow with my sis and my lil brother. Hope the movie goes well. I have to say, I have, heck WE ALL have been waiting for this installment for quite a while what with the pushing back the date and all. Plus the awesome trailer doesn't really help much with the anticipation either. It opened last Thursday, here in Seremban and based on the review I read, this one opened to rave reviews! Some even went as far as calling it the best Harry Potter movie to date! Even Rotten Tomatoes gave it an 84% fresh on their Tomatometer! Yes, I do consult Rotten Tomatoes from time to time! *All the time actually!* Though I try not to rely on them too much and I do try to avoid reading the reviews before watching a movie.

You see, its all very Schrodinger Cat to me. Erwin Schrodinger made a very important physics discovery using a cat as the subject of the experiment. He put a cat in a sealed box, together with a vial of poison. The vial is closed but will break randomly releasing the poison thus killing the cat. Since the poison is released at random time, you won't know when exactly the cat will die until you open the box. So the cat might still be alive AND dead at the same time but when you open the box, you see that the cat is EITHER dead OR alive. Sort of like that. I'm not really good with quantum mechanics although I learned about this topic EXTENSIVELY last semester. I try to avoid this topic in the exam actually, not quite confident with my skills :) Anyway my point is, until you go and see the movie, you won't know what's in store for you. Just like your examination result, you know its already published on the website but you won't know the result until you check it. For all that you know you could fail :( So like I said, Its all very Schrodinger Cat to me!

Besides if you rely too much on the reviews, the movie won't be that much of a fun. You're gonna be influenced by the reviews, with that constant nagging voice at the back of your head reminding you of those things you read beforehand. And critics nowadays tend to be self-indulgent and very cynical anyway. Gone are the days when reviews focus on the movie as a whole.

Anyway, don't mind me. I'm rambling. I do this a lot lately. I'll tell you more about the movie later. See ya~

Missy Higgins - Where I Stood

Blog entry 1.0

2009-07-13T14:42:00.004+01:00

Well hello everyone. How've you been? I hope you're all enjoying your summer holiday wherever you may be. Be it under the warm, crisp summer of UK or scorching tropical heat of Malaysia, let me wish you, a happy summer holiday. So just like last year, I'm back home in Seremban right now, enjoying my holiday surrounded by friends and loved ones. A true bliss, I've to say. My flight back home was on the 24th of June, around 9 pm UK time.

I flew with Emirates again this year, albeit with slight reluctance because I initially, was planning on taking a straight flight back home. I thought a transit in Dubai would be tiring just like last year's trip but I couldn't find a better deal, so I'm basically stuck with Emirates. Even with Air Asia around I still couldn't find a cheaper fare. Emirates cost like half the fare of Air Asia! Can you believe that? I got mine for like GBP 390 but I have to go Birmingham Airport instead of Manchester Airport. For some unknown reason, the flight from Manchester would cost me an extra GBP 100, so I opt for Birmingham Airport instead. Flight was smooth although I kinda freaked out a lil'bit about my health. Not because of the swine flu! I was actually worried about my ears cause a few days before my flight, I got this nagging feeling that something was wrong with my ears, coupled with the flu I had a few weeks back didn't really put me at ease.

So I went to the doctor and he told me that I have some fluid build up in my left ear canal, which shocked me a bit but it should be okay because he didn't see any perforation or infection on my eardrum. I was like

"Okay then, the tube is still inside? I'm good to go?"

And he was like,

"What tube? There's no tube"

" Ooookay, this is creepy."

I thought.

I asked him if he knows anything about it and he told me not to worry since our ears have this tendency to expulse anything foreign in it. So its really not a big deal and he assured me that I don't need to worry about it too much. So I went back home all relived but come Jun 24th, I got a bit antsy. I decided to take things into my own hands and prepare myself for the worst. Thank god for internet these days, you can practically find anything you want from the comfort of your home. I searched for flight preparation for airplane ear and got quite a few good hits so I read through several of them but most of them have the same advice. Painkillers and decongestant. So at the airport, I bought a pack of painkillers, Anadin to be exact and a pack of decongestant to be taken orally. I already have a spray decongestant actually so I don't really need the tablet one but I decided not to take my chances and bought the tablet anyway. I followed all the instructions and praise to God, the flight went well. That's one thing to tick off from my 'Worry List'.

Anyway, enough of my creepy ears story. Let's talk about something else. How about the fact that I haven't been a good blogger these past few months??? I mean come on, 2 entries for the past month?? Someone sure has been verrry productive these days. ~sigh. Truth to be told, I have a lot of things to talk about but I was just too lazy to get my sorry bum up from the bed. That and the fact that my revision for the final exam hogged most of my day. Okay I know by the time I publish this post, it'll be too little too late since all these events is like really old news but I just wanna write something, so bear with me. Come to think of it, I haven't talked about my exam yet have I? Well I tell you, final exam this semester was a pain in my neck particularly because I had back to back papers for four straight days! Four straight days of chemistry, no break with lots and lots of caffeine, energy bar and doughnuts! I had too much caffeine that by the time exam's over, I was all fidgety and jumpy with too much energy! Took me quite a while to sober up. But seriously, Red Bull can really keeps you going through the night. And day too! But all that's over now and I'm safely back home where the only drink I have is Iced Milo! *drools*

Home sure feels kinda 'homey' *You get the drift* after you've been away for a while kan? There's nothing much going on around the house. Got some family stuff going on but hey, what family doesn't? Had a laugh with my mum talking about my brothers and sister. Heard the funniest story about my little brother from my family, which I will talk about more in details probably in my next entry. Oh my cat was sick and lost its weight. Probably got into a fight with my neighbours's cat and got hurt. Looks kinda serious cause he was limping for about a week before I got back home according to my mum. So by the time I got back, things kinda got worse so my brother and I took him to the vet.

I thought its just gonna be a simple check up with some bandage and he'd be good to go but the doctor said the wound on his hand was too deep and he may have tu cut it open to drain the pus. Horrified? Understatement. Poor Timon! But there's no other choice 'cause the wound would only spread to most of his arm if we wait any longer. He may not be able to use his arm anymore! So we told the doctor to just proceed with any treatment he had in mind.

Thank god he only had to go through a minor surgery, but after the surgery was the toughest part 'cause he was sedated during the surgery, so he felt groggy and couldn't feel his leg. He struggled for quite some time and there were blood all over the his hand. But once the anaesthesia wore off, he was okay. We had to give him antibiotics everyday to make sure the wound is not infected. Quite easy actually because we asked for syrup instead of tablets. I was in charged of giving him the medicine and every time I come around, he'd dashed the other way. He was actually avoiding me! He didn't come near me for about a week! But now he is looking good by day. He is still limping but at least he can put his hand on the ground now to walk without having to jump around like a kangaroo like he used too. And oh, he's got his appetite back too!

Anyway, that's all for now. I think that's enough for a post. Gonna go and watch some more telly. Have a good day folks!

P/S: How excited are you about HBP??? I'm over the roof excited!

Breaking out

2009-06-22T00:33:00.004+01:00

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Now playing: The Rescues - My Heart With You
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If I say I'm tired, would you believe me? I don't think I can do this anymore. I wanna do it but I just don't have the strength anymore. I'm beat. Emotionally beat. I'm so tired of all these games. I just wanna be myself. Free from all these problems, complications. I wanna fly. Away from all these. You know they never tell you how difficult life can be. When you're small, adulthood seems so cool, a world with no constraints where anything can happen. The opportunities, possibilities are endless. Once you're really in it, you'll realize, it isn't as glorified as you thought it'd be. What we don't realize is that adulthood comes with responsibilities.

Its like Newton's Law, every action has a reaction. Every decision, action has consequences and reaction. Positive or negative? Heh, that's just the direction. Its the magnitude that counts. How big it is the setback, the impact on you. Are you prepared to face it? Do you have what it takes to weather through all your decisions, good or bad? But then again, who's to say you made the wrong choice? Can you really know its the right choice at that time? Human beings are not perfect. We make mistakes all the time. And I mean all the time. What really matter is that you know how to face the aftermath. You'll wonder about the road not taken, trust me you will. We all do that from time to time. But there's no use in wondering. What's done is done. You move on. Walk away. Walk away from the battle. Swallow the pain or whatever. Easier said than done, I know. But its the truth. Stop moping. You can stop, mope and nurse your pride or you can walk away head held high. Stand up and walk with your pain. Don't whine, don't cry. Don't lick your wounds but celebrate it. Celebrate your battle scar. Just because you lost, doesn't mean you don't know how to fight. Just move on. To the bigger picture in your life. They always tell you not to look back. But looking back is actually a wise thing to do. Evaluate yourself from your action. That way, history will neeever repeat itself.

So I'm walking away. I'm walking with my head up high. Looking forward to the next thing in my life. The scars I have, will be my witness and no one can take that away from me.

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Now playing: The Rescues - Shadows Of Tall Buildings
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Gasps!!

2009-06-07T16:47:00.004+01:00

*Faints*

Its that time again

2009-05-21T13:22:00.002+01:00

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Well hello folks. Yes as we're all aware of, American Idol just ended their 8th season witnessing the coronation of the underdog/dark horse of the competition Kris Allen as their latest Idol. What do I think? Even if you don't ask, I still wanna answer that! I'm happy, ecstatic, and overwhelmed by the fact that the contestant I rooted for the whole time snatched away the crown from the other contestant! I have been waiting this moment for so long, ever since I heard him sang Man in the Mirror back in top 48 and last night, when I hit that refresh button for the umpteenth at 4 in the morning, I just knew that my stay-up was worth it! He freakin won the show! Have I always know that he would win? NO! I HOPED that he'd win but every week it seems his chances were very slim. Adam Lambert put up a great fight. It was so intense week after week. I always think that Adam would be the eventual winner but I guess there's no guarantee to that huh? Kris has always been my favourite throughout the competition and sure he has his ups and downs but I liked him all the same. Its not like I don't like Adam, I do. Its just that I like Kris more. I absolutely loved Adam's version of Mad World! *Thanks to Kimmy for posting this song on her blog* It was PERFECT! I didn't know what he's gonna sing at that time but when I heard the music, I found myself humming to the tunes and singing along. I was like,

"Hey, I know this song!"

His rendition was better than the original one, in my opinion. So no, I'm not a bias, I'm just another listener who prefers Kris over Adam. But nevertheless, both put up incredible performances on result night. Kris' duet with Keith friggin Urban was amazing! Hey that's it, maybe I like Kris because I like folksy-country music! Granted, my country music artists are only those in the mainstream music, (re: Rascal Flatts & Carrie Underwood) but I still adore the music! Anyway, last night's performances were solid. From all of'em, the top 13 and the guest artists. Not sure about the Black Eye Peas though. I really liked Michael and Megan duet with Steve Martin! That last song, We Are The Champions was incredible, especially since Kris is not really the rock type. Well the competition's over now. We'll see how they fare from here. Will Kris follow Taylor Hicks path or Carrie's rise to popularity, we'll see. But I do hope its the latter though. maybe he'll be like John Mayor or Rob Thomas. crooning his tunes to the Grammy. I hope that they all do well after this. Not just Kris or Adam.

~Sigh. No more shows to watch now. Its nearing summer, so everything's ending. Gossip, Grey's, Desperate and Heroes, all just ended their season. That means one thing for me, exam is near!!! Arghh! I.Need.More.Time!!! Oh by the way, During performances night, Ryan advertise some pilot episode for FOX, a teen drama show, Glee! I watched it and absolutely loved it!!! Go watch the show, you'll know. Please note that It.Is.Not.Another.High.School.Musical. Its about a Glee club, not some musical show where people randomly broke into songs and dance! ~sheesh~

Have to go now. Got lotsa work to do!

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Funny ads

2009-04-20T21:42:00.003+01:00

I thought this was funny, albeit slightly insulting. =)

"What does she looks like?" LOL

I wanna sue my parents for the rights of own body...

2009-04-19T00:17:00.007+01:00

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Now playing: Pete Yorn - Come Back Home
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So get this, I surf the net one day, trying to find some info on My Sister's Keeper, which by the way, still is one of my all time favourite book, only to find that the movie version would have a different ending from the book! I mean WTH??!! What's the point of adapting the book to the silver screen in the first place if you're gonna change the ending, which possibly may alter the whole plot?!! Seriously! I absolutely LOVE this book with all my heart so you can imagine how frustrated I am with the news. The book itself was perfect just the way it is, why the sudden change?! I think the best part of My Sister's Keeper was the ending because its not how you imagine it would be. The ending totally caught me by surprise. I still remember how I bawled reaching the end of the book wishing the end would be different somehow but still, I think its the perfect way to end the book. Okay I admit, I may be blowing things out of proportion considering that the movie still hasn't come out yet and maybe the new ending will be a much better one, but still, I kinda wanna see the old ending. Who knows, maybe no one will die in this one *Oops spoiler di situ* I guess I just have to be patient then. Wait for it to come out and whack the director if the ending is not to my liking kan?

I paste the trailer here so you should check it out. Another thing that kinda bugs me about this movie is Abigail Breslin. I don't know about you guys, but I don't think she's suited for the role. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against her in fact I think she's a terrific actor. Remember her performance on Little Miss Sunshine? That one earned her an Academy Award nomination for Best Supporting Actress. Even though she lost to Jennifer Hudson for Dreamgirls, to be nominated at her age was a pretty amazing I'd say. Aaaanyway, I always Imagine Anna Fitzgerald to be someone who's really strong. Emotionally strong. I don't know why, but my head was kinda stucked with Amy Davidson from 8 Simple Rules as Anna. She may be old but she has that strong, redhead look I always pictured Anna as. If you've read the book, then you'll know why. *Wait was Anna a redhead in the book?? Can't remember* SO like I said, I just don't get that 'Anna' vibe from Abby.

Nevertheless, I look forward to seeing the rest of the cast, especially Cameron Diaz. I think this would be my first time watching her in a serious role rather than a ditzy, dumb blonde she used to potray. Overall, I must say this would be on the top of my summer's MUST WATCH movie list, along with Harry Potter HBP. Hope they have a great soundtrack for this one, not just for the trailer. Vega4's Life is Beautiful was a perfect choice for the trailer, don't you think so? You can never go wrong with that song! Such a powerful song from such a short-lived band. A shame actually. Anyway, what do you think? Will you watch this movie or just wait for the torrent? Hoho

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P/S: Finished watching Keith! God that was so sad. Thanks Taufiq for the recommendation.

P P/S: "I don't mind the disease killing me but its killing my family."That has got to be one of the saddest line in the movie

Once...

2009-04-16T02:53:00.002+01:00

Ladies and Gentleman, I present to you, your next ~~American Idol!~~ *Don't wanna jinx it*

Falling Slowly + Kris Allen = Brilliant!

Can't imagine a better song choice for him. I think he made a smart yet risky choice, choosing an indie song like this. Not many people are familiar with the song. I know the song because it won the Academy Award for Best Song in a Motion Picture last year. Heck, I've never even heard the song before that. Nevertheless, smart choice Kris. Way to go to show the world that LESS IS MORE! Remember that people. I still got goosebumps hearing him singing that. Maybe its because of how his sultry, soft voice blends beautifully with the background singer *swayed*

Man in the mirror

2009-04-02T01:17:00.006+01:00

Kris Allen. If I can vote from here I would vote for you and
let you sail through to the Final 2.
You're the most consistent singer in this season.
Forget Adam Lambert and Danny Gokey!
Who needs them when you can hear Kris' sultry voice!
*For god sake stop shouting Adam!!!*
Its not "Kris who?" anymore.
Its Kris Allen babeh!
You're the man dawg!

...

...

Erk, I can never pull that off, can I?

Go watch AI. You'll know what I'm talking about.

...

Right, that's enough entertainment for the night.
Ferrocene tomorrow! This should be 'fun'
Moving on people, moving on.

I wonder...

2009-03-20T00:10:00.001Z

All I have is a voice
To undo the folded lie,
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky:
And no one exists alone;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police;
We must love one another or die.

Snowy night (how I wish)...

2009-02-15T19:01:00.004Z

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Hei hei! I'm back!!! Well not for long I guess. I'm just swamped these days with school stuff. Classes just started last Monday and I'm already neck deep in homework! I haven't really got much to update other than my mundane day-to-day activity. I think its safe to say that those in the UK must have been enjoying this year's bizzare winter. It snowed all over the UK kan? They say its the worst in 18 years, but I say its the BEST in 18 years!!! I did go out and play, but not for long since I just started my paper when it first came down.

I like snow. Do you? Its not just because I come from a tropical land, where the only snow I get to see around my house is in my grandma's old fridge. To me there's something magical about snow, how the snowflakes fall and settled on the ground covering the land, its like they're blanketing the land. When it first started to snow around Sheffield, some of my friends were less enthused by it since they just came back from their skiing trip in Swiss or Norway or France. They said that they had enough of snow during their ski trip that they kinda don't really see the point of my being excited with snow. I know they just came back and still felt the aftermath of their trip but I think snow around here, particularly around your house, is different from those in the Alps Mountain Range no? I don't know about others but I always have this dream when I was little that one day, if I ever I get to go to any of the 4 seasons country, I would walk in the snow with my boots on, going to class or just walk around the park or something. I thought the idea was kinda nice back then, and still is. I dunno, I think its the sentimental value that I chase. I wanna walk around with my coat covered with flakes, slipped and fell on the ground because its so slippery, you know those kinda things. Nah, I think that's just me. Well , what can I say, I'm wired this way. *Hey, it rhymes!* Anyway, yes, I LOVE the snow! No matter how cold it gets at night or how thick the ground can be or how dirty it gets after a while, I still love every bits of it! Still, I think I'm this way because I never really felt real snow before, maybe if lived in the UK for all my life, I would have thought otherwise kan?? Who knows, huh?

Enough talk about the snow, lets talk about something else. How about me, getting pissed yesterday because I was refused a contract by T-Mobile yesterday!

Well, yesterday, I went to T-Mobile to get a contract phone since my current phone's contract is going to expire soon. I'm not going to renew my contract with O2 because I'm so pissed at them for their bad customer service! Don't even get me started on that! Anyway, I went to T-Mobile in Meadowhall and everything was fine until we got to the part where they have to verify my address and account. They couldn't do it online since the line was so busy at that time. They had to use the phone to call some company and I waited for the approval. After what seems like a day, they finally got through and I was happy but my happiness didn't last long 'cause they rejected my account! I asked them what happened, since I was sure I have some money left in my account, but they didn't know what went wrong. Apparently its the other company's policy to not talk about the reasons why they rejected someone's account. The guy at the shop also didn't know what the reasons are. So I thought, okay, I'll try again 'some other day' and guess what? My 'some other day' would have to be in another 3 months!!!! Apparently, if you get rejected, you have to wait for 3 months before you can try again. 3 months. 3 FREAKING months!!!! I was so pissed that I went straight to the bank to ask them what happened only to be told that the bank had nothing to do with it! The whole credit-checking thing was actually done by a third party company called Experian and Equifax! The clerk told me that I need to send the company a letter to ask for my credit report! What?????? What's all this credit mumbo jumbo??? I haven't got the slightest idea what's going on here!!!

I went back and try to search that company online and found it. Apparently, the company's responsible for every credit traffic you have with your service provider, like the internet, your cell phone and your bank. Lets say you didn't pay for some subscription for like 3 months and you moved to another place, where they couldn't reach you to ask you to pay your debt. Since they couldn't reach you, they thought you're running away from them and listed you as a default and it will show on your credit report where it can be viewed by any company that you tried to make contract with or subscribed to. So now, T-Mobile has seen my report and I was rejected, but the problem is that I don't know if I ever lend any money or didn't pay for any subscriptions. So I requested my statutory credit report for GBP 2.00 even though I'm sure haven't done anything wrong, and I have to wait for 7 days! 7 days!!

This evening I went to Noodle Inn with Zila, Faz and Sue and I told them what happened. So they asked me,

"Ape yg ko direct debit dari account ko?"

"Takde pape pon. Ade Sky, ngan O2 je."

"Dulu?"

"Takde pape. Just O2 ngan..."

*Gasp*

"Dulu kan aku ade account Unlimited ngan Cineworld"

"Ko dh terminate kan?"

*I paused*

"Dah"

"Ntahlah Amin, tak atu ak ape hal ngan akaun ko ni"

. . .

Okay I lied. I didn't really cancel my account with Cineworld. I just canceled them from my Direct Debit list. I didn't really tell them that I'm stopping their service. Sorry, my bad!
Anyway, as soon as I get back, I called Cineworld to check my account and guess what?? I did have an outstanding balance with them!!!! Argh! How was I supposed to know??? See? I was so indifferent to the proper ways of canceling my contract and now its biting me back! Its karma! So now, I have settled all my debt and the only thing left is to check my credit report. See if the default credit status is still there! ~Phew~

I think that's enough venting for the day. I'm gonna stop now. I'm gonna watch The Curious Case of Benjamin Button now. Faz said its a beautiful and sad movie. Coming from her, its like the ultimate compliment, and if she say its a sad movie, its gonna be a reallly sad movie.

So long peeps!

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Three more to go!

2009-01-28T01:00:00.002Z

Is it just me, or this ad really is one of the most entertaining ads so far??? This has really made my day! =) I just can't stop smiling. ~Ahhh.... Just what I need after a long day. Just finished with my first paper today. *1st, can you believe it??? This late???*

And this is one is so cute! *like a button!* We're so creative aren't we? ;p

stressed out!!!

2009-01-26T03:20:00.004Z

Saya tersangatlah stress!
Stress, stress, stress!
Pnat!!!!

Xlarat dah!!!!
Can someone please put me out of my misery!
I can't bear looking at this point group theory crap anymore!
*tsk-tsk*

A chip on the shoulder...

2009-01-16T17:15:00.003Z

So we have problems right? Everyone has their own set.

I am always dawned with this question,

"With all the things goin around, what makes my problem so big, bigger than anyone else's?"

I guess its because

they're mine. . .

I don't think this counts as an answer,

but yeah,

maybe because they're mine.

Ha Ha Ha...Happy New Year!!!

2009-01-01T02:16:00.002Z

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Okay before I start. . . *runs off and turn on the heater* ~Ahhh. That's more like it! Seriously this year's winter is soooo cold!

Anyway, yeah, here I am. Again. At last. Feels like I haven't blogged in ages! Don't know why though. Just couldn't bring myself to write anything. Lets see, last year I wrote 32 entries

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WHAT?!!!! ONLY 32?!!

I'm not really a good blogger, am I? ~sigh

So much for last year's resolution to write more entries! Maybe I'll make it happen this time around. Okay bear witness everyone for I am gonna write, at least 5 entries per month! Hows that for a resolution?! Seriously, I need to write more instead of bottling everything up inside me!

This year has been a pretty challenging year for me. It was all fine and okay until I got the news from my brother. I think I'm beginnning to accept the fact now. I think of my grandfather from time to time but I'm much better now. Allah knows best. Every living thing will go eventually, only tme will tell. Have you ever heard of the 5 stages of grief? This theory that people undergo different stages of emotion before finally accepting the truth? I never used to believe all that crap. I mean, how exactly can you tell what's goin on in someone's head at that time? Did you really go through all those stages before arriving at the conclusion? I guess in a way, we all did. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. Somehow, sub-consciously we did. Then again its just a theory. Who knows huh?

Anyway, I still can't believe its 2009 already! Time sure flies these days! This is my 2nd year here and before I knew it, its gonna be 2010 and my final year here in the UK. I don't have any hopes or resolutions for this year. Just like last year, I'm gonna take things one step at a time. This way, I think I'm kinda lowering my expectations of things to come. The thing about expectations is that on one hand it can inspire you, but then again they can really let you down.
So I guess I'm playing it safe this year.

I don't really have much to say so I'm just gonna wish everyone a happy new year. May all our resolutions and wishes come true.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

P/S: This is one weird entry huh? What a way to kickstart my new year! ;p

P P/S: Wish me luck for my finals!!!

lost

2008-12-19T01:25:00.003Z

I learned something today.

You know the thing about being lost,

you can be lost anywhere,

even in a place where you know it, like the back of your hand,

you can be lost. . .

I'm beat...

2008-12-12T00:01:00.005Z

Its so cold today. . .

Hope it snows tomorrow. . .

~sigh

I'm beat. . .

I'm tired. . .

I need my sleep. . .

or maybe a long hot shower. . .

my back's killing me. . .

my feet are sore. . .

my head's throbbing, feels like its swelling. . .

I need Valium,

Lots and lots and lotsa Valium. . .

Yeah, that will do

;p

~sigh

I . . . Don't Know

2008-11-30T05:54:00.002Z

My grandfather is somewhat a significant figure in my life. I was too young to remember my other grandfathers. My mum's father passed away when I was 5 and abah's when I was 7. I remember them but the memories are like series of blurry images. Can't really make out the picture. Atuk was different. I was practically raised by him since I spend most of time in his house. I remember as a child going back and forth to his house and mum's house. I stayed there until I was 14, that's when mum moved to Seremban. Even then, I still visit him and mak from time to time. Strange though why I never call him abah when I can call my grandma, mak. I don't really know why. But I love him all the same.

He used to be in the army. He has this thunderous voice that I was so scared of when I was little, scolding me or my brother when we played loudly in the house. I used to go to KAFA class in the evening back in my primary years and every evening, the students would go to the mosque for our Asar prayer. I always remember seeing atuk there and each time, I would go to him and ask him for seringgit, for the junk food I'd buy from the store nearby. Sometimes I got it, sometimes I don't. But more often than not, I'd always get my way. Atuk used to cycle to the mosque every evening for Asar and Maghrib, but this was back when his legs are still strong and the road being less busy at that time. His bicycle was this big black one, with high seat that its impossible for me to mount it without using something to elevate me. It was really popular back then, the bicycle I mean. Anyway, the bike;s gone now. My aunt must've thrown it away. Atuk and mak has a breakfast stall in front of their house, that they would open every morning. I remember them waking up as early as 4 AM to set up the stall and food. Mak would make kuih and Nasi Lemak and atuk would be making the drinks for the customer. Gosh, I remember being mad at one of his friends for talking so loud that I can hear him inside the house. Was it Haji Kayat? I can't remember but I know his one of is regular customer and his friends.

Atuk's friends would come to the stall every morning after their Subuh at the mosque, for their regular breakfast and morning news. I don't really like them when I was a kid particularly because of the reason I just mentioned above but as I grow up, I kinda grew on them and sometimes they amused me. Their antiques when they're together, the stories, the laughter, I guess its part of their life. Morning coffee with friends for news from their sons and daughters, political debates,. the weather, current issues like food prices, and the list goes on. The usual. Atuk was fond of them. I guess that's life. But all that changed when I moved to Seremban. I didn't hear them talking anymore, but I would everytime I visit my grandparents. Anyway, after I moved, I make it a point to visit them once a month or stayed with them during the school holidays. He'd ask my aunt to call my mum asking her when are we gonna come to his house? He'd always ask us to stay for a while during school holidays. Abang almost always got scolded by him because he usually didn't stay for long like me and my sister. When I got into INTEC, I visited them two or three times a month since their house is much nearer to Shah Alam. Their house has this porch where atuk likes to sit and read his papers or just sit there watching the days go by. Whenever I come, he'd always be there, waving from afar like he haven't seen me in a million years, always asking me how long am I staying, in hope its gonna be more than just a day.

When I got a scholarship from KPM, my grandma told me that he bragged about it to every customer that come to the stall. Kinda embarrasing actually considering that it wasn't final yet, that I still have to sit for my A-level first, but he doesn't give a damn about all that. He doesn't really understand kot? ;p Lucky for me, my grandma did. She corrected him when his stories got a little out of hand. Thank god for that. I found quite amusing actually. Klaka pulak. Anyway, I promised myself that I'd bring them both to the airport for my departure but sadly, they couldn't come. They both were not strong enough, physically and emotionally, to see me off. But I called them minutes before my flight, to ensure them that I still love them and that I'll never forget them while I'm here, and that I will do my duties as a muslim no matter where I go. Hearing their voice was enough for me, even if they can't make it to the airport.. .

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...

...

...

About a week ago, I got a call from abang.

"Amin, jangan terkejut. Atuk dah tak sedar..."

I can't remember what else he said after that. but I think I heard him muttered the word yassin. Truthfully, I didn't know how to react at that time. I seem to have stopped moving but my world just goes on without me. I hoped for the best. I really did. I went to the library that night to keep myself busy and I was optimistic that atuk was gonna wake up again but when my mum called later, I just know that the hope I've been keeping, is going to shatter into tiny million pieces if I pick up the phone. . . .

. . . . . . . I was right. It did shatter. Atuk passed away around subuh.

You know you always prepare yourself for the worst. I thought I was ready. I thought I've prepared myself for this, prepared for the worst. You spend your life preparing for things but you can never really be sure how you'd react when it really happened. It is hard. You never really know what to think or to do. I keep telling myself I was ready for this. He was so frail when I went back for holiday last summer. But I was also optimistic that he'd make it through. But he didn't make it. . . I don't know what to do. i didn't cry at that time. I stayed at home and I read the yassin after maghrib. A few days ago, I walked myself to a park around the uni in hope to find some peace and quiet to do my work. I sat at a bench overlooking this great tree whose leaves have already fallen. As I sat there, it finally dawn to me that this summer, if I come back home, there won't be this familiar face waiting for me at the porch. No waving when I come around the house, no more of that thunderous voice greeting me from afar, no more him around. It finally dawn to me that last summer was really the last time I saw him, the last time I hear his voice, the last time I hugged him. . .

So last week I lost someone so dear to me.
I lost my grandfather.
I lost one of my loved ones.
If you still have your loved ones around you, call them.
Tell them how much you love them while you still have time,
because I would give anything,
anything I have,
to have one last moment with my grandfather,

... to tell him how much I love him.

To atuk,

~Al-Fatihah~

Who cares if I'm wasting my time here???

2008-11-11T00:39:00.001Z

Alex Woodard - Beautiful Now

Finally, some time off!!! Seriously! I can't take any more of this post-lab crap. I'm officially sick of calculating propagation error for every damn thing! THIS.NEEDS.TO.STOP. Propagation error is the error you calculate using each of your apparatus' error. Like, if you're calculating heat capaci... ah why bother? Lets just say that its annoying. :(

I'm beat and I have blisters all over my feet. I'm too tired to do anything, so I thought I just post something.

Well, here's something from Youtube,

Yayyyy!!! A duet!! Finally!! Even if its just a christmas song, who cares??? I love them both! Been waiting for ages for them to do a duet! Ingrid's voice is soooo unique and Sara's a really great singer and composer! Can't wait to listen the full version.

Ohh here's another one

Awww, why can't they make that here??? I'd kill to be there listening to them performing live! That would be like a dream come true *errr...don't ask* I just love Matt's songs!

Ah got to go. Need to finish up all these lab reports. Tie up some loose ends. I hate being a second year? Don't you? ;p

Sara Bareilles - Between The Lines

Sekalung Takziah Buat Sahabat. . .

2008-11-01T04:43:00.003Z

Grace Is Gone - Jamie Cullum

Don't stand by my grave and weep,

For I am not there.

I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond's glint in the snow,

I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn's rain.

In the soft blush of the morning light

I am the swift bird in flight.

Don't stand by my grave and cry,

I am not there,

I did not die.

Sekalung takziah buat sahabat. . .
Semoga roh ayahnya dicucuri rahmat. . .
~Al-Fatihah~

Change is gonna come...

2008-10-25T00:36:00.002+01:00

The only constant thing in life is change. . .

That was what some French author said. Change. At some point in our life, change is inevitable. You maybe changed for good or maybe, its something that you feel as the right thing to do at the moment. When you really think about it, nothing remains the same for long. Things always change. So how? How do you keep up with the swift current? We either adapt to the change, or we get left behind. Everyone hates change. No one likes to get out of their comfort zone. We want things to be the same as they have always been, because that makes life so much easier. Maybe its the law of nature, making changes, to force you out of your cocoon, out of your comfort zone. To let you see your option, finding your true calling, delve into the deepest pit of your imagination, realize your true potential. We grow with changes. It made us who we are. Toughen our skin, broaden our horizon, maturing us in every way possible, so that life won't be as bad as what some people said it would be. Yes, we grow with changes. It does hurt, growing with changes, and whoever said it would be painless, is lying. Change hurts, it makes us insecure, confused and angry. But through it all, we may find the very thing we've been looking for, ourselves. Mahatma Gandhi once said, be the change you want to see in the world. So it starts with you.

Change is inevitable. . .

Change is gonna come. . .

~End Rants~

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Maybe its the flu???

2008-10-04T23:44:00.002+01:00

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Now playing: Boyce Avenue - Not Enough
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I was feeling especially happy yesterday. For what reason, I still don't know. I dunno. Don't you just feel like that sometimes? That you're happy for no obvious reason? But often, its only for a brief moment. You're feeling all fine and dandy, but the next thing you know, you're lying on the ground. As if someone's just pulled a rug from underneath you, that you fell to the ground, head first, banging so hard that you're brought back to face the very thing that you're afraid of.

Reality

For what its worth, I was very happy yesterday. Truly. Despite my body condition, which I assure you, is not looking very good right now. I'm still having my annual flu and its not getting any better considering that Sheffield is looking gloomier by day! I have started classes already and I already got like a gazillion things to do now. *It's only been the first week! *

Anyway, I don't really have anything worth to write about now. Life's pretty much a routine now that class have started. I just thought I'd share my experience of instant happiness here. But really, don't you feel that sometimes? It was a good feeling. Even if its only for a brief moment. Maybe those instant euphoric feeling that you had, was your mind's way of telling you to be positive. See the light at the end of the tunnel. *Not that my life is in any dark place right now.* To not give up hope. That everything's in God's hand. Its in His plan. You just have to have faith. . .

I guess that's my cue. Have to go before I starts to ramble on further. Anyway, great news, they figured out the wireless password! So thats a for me!

Cheers guys!

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Now playing: Over The Rhine - Latter Days
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P/S: Maybe its the flu???

Raya ad this year

2008-09-30T08:04:00.002+01:00

Bodo budak nie. Just because of the internet he's willing to give up his time with his mum??? I'd give anything just to be around my family right now!!!

Selamat Hari Raya guys!!!

2008-09-30T01:00:00.005+01:00

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Believe it or not, I have like 4 or 5 entries on my iPod that I still haven't wrote on here yet. Those were the entries detailing my trip back home and back here again in Sheffield. I'm back. And yes, there was sadness in that tone. Somehow, I felt really homesick this time. Maybe because I've already known what's in store for me this time around, unlike last year, where everything was still yet to be revealed. Anticipation. It's a really powerful drug I daresay.

Anyway, I got here on September 21st. My flight from Malaysia was actually at 2.00 AM! As you can see, everything went well. I had a layover of about 4 hours in Dubai and lucky for me, I was in the same flight as Odey, Liew and Beya. All of whom, were my seniors back in INTEC. We hang around in Dubai airport together but we didn't board the same plane to the UK. They took the one bound for Birmingham and mine was the one bound to Manchester. Arrived on the same date at 12.40 noon. Had to take a bus to Manchester Piccadilly, which was a total nightmare considering I'm heaving a 25kg of luggage! Once there, I took train to Sheffield. Normally there's a direct train from Manchester Airport to Sheffield, but noooo, that day they decided to stop the route and we were forced to take the bus instead! Here's what the sign says,

Dear passengers, we are deeply sorry to informed you that there would be no train bound for the Manchester Piccadilly Station on 14 and 21st of September. We are truly sorry for any inconvenience caused. Take that sucker!!!

. . . Well, okay, I may have exaggerated a little bit there, but the point is still there kan? Gosh, I don't know why I'm being so bitter seeing that a week has already past since that wretched incident! Maybe because I'm having a slight fever today. Oh wait, no! I'm pissed because tomorrow's Eid and I'm having a sore throat that its impossible for me to sleep, I'm burning up and tired and did I mention, tomorrow's Eid????? Of all the time, my immune system picked the day before Hari Raya to bail out on me??!!! Well, they didn't actually bail, 'cause if they do, I'd be lying dead, head smack on this desk right now. Which is not the way I planned to celebrate my Raya. Anyway, yes tomorrow, September 30th would be the day us muslims in Sheffield celebrate Eid or Aidilfitri. To say that I miss home would be an understatement! How I'd kill to get on a plane back home to Malaysia this very moment! But, life has to go on. Take whatever it is that they throw at you. Curve balls, spinning balls, rock or whatever it is, use it to your advantage. *stops blabbering*

I shouldn't be writing this at all! Tomorrow's a a very holy day. I should write something more noble or touching or sappy! Arghh!!! I can't think with this terrible blocked nose!

Ooh, I've already received my timetable! Guess what, I nearly fainted when I saw it! Its gonna be one hell of a ride I tell you! Really! Its not really packed but the modules, its not exactly the kinda thing I expected! Lets see, we have Organic Reaction Mechanism, Atomic Spectrometry and Data Evaluation, Changes of State, Equilibria, Biological Molecules, Structure Determination, Quantum Mechanics, Aromatic Chemistry and the list goes on.

*Can someone please just kill me already!*

But I'm still positive that I'm gonna be able to do well this semester.

I can, can't I?

*Tell me I'm not kiddin myself???*

Oh yeah, I may not be able to write for a while considering I still don't have any internet connection. Well, technically, I have but its not mine. Its my housemate's. I have to call BT and set a landline and then I can apply for broadband. Supposedly, I don't have to but that stupid Virgin Broadband said that my house is not in their coverage area! I mean wth??? My house is in the middle of the city center and its not in their area???? Zila's house, which is like at the end of the world *No offense Zil* can even still get a decent coverage, and mine can't??? ~Pfft. Well they say, I'd have to wait for a week or two for the landline installation. We'll see how it goes from there.

Okay, I think I'm done. That's it I guess. Sorry that I was so pissed. I just need a place to vent and rant!

To all of you,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Yea-yea Esok raye. Esok raye. Esok raye. . . *voice trails away*

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P/S: This like my favorite Raya song! Never failed to make me ~~teary-eye~~ cry!

P P/S: Really missed my family this time!!!!

From where I'm standing...

2008-09-17T19:53:00.002+01:00

I guess it's not the way

You always planned it

Looks like you're heading for a crash landing

That's just the way it looks

from where i'm standing

That's just the way it looks

from where i'm standing

From where i'm standing

Why do I feel like it really fits me somehow. . . for now anyway

When will things get better?

I'm still hoping for the best...

But I'm tired...

I can feel it slipping...

Right before my eyes...

Ya Allah, tolonglah aku. . . . . . . . .

Did you know, sir...? Then...?

2008-08-23T08:15:00.002+01:00

OMG!!! Can a person die from too much excitement?!!!! I nearly fainted when I saw this trailer in cinema the other day! Hehehe I can't wait for this one! Too bad they pushed back the date to Spring 2009 *I think so?*

P/S: Kimmy, will do your tag after this. Hehehehehe...

Energy depletion. . . . . . . . .teeetttttttttt

2008-08-15T07:40:00.007+01:00

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Seems like forever since the last time I blogged! Please note that that, doesn't mean that I'm giving up on my online journal here. I was just taking a few weeks off to let myself enjoy my holiday here, back home! Feels so good to be back home and see all my friends and family! Even though I've only been away less than a year *9 months to be exact!*, I already miss them so, I guess its true what they say, absence does make the heart grow fonder.

Sooooo, what have I been doing these past few weeks that kept me so busy that I forgot to update my blog here? Well, the main reason actually is because I was deprived of Internet for most of my earlier weeks here. I went to grandma's house in Kg. Nakhoda for about a week or so and since she didn't have any internet connection, I had to go the nearest CC to surf the net. I was going to update blog there but decided not to, seeing how the CC was packed with smoking, underage teenagers, who by the way, kept peering at my PC's screen to see what I was doing! So I put my noble intention of updating on hold and walked away, right after I checked my mail and Friendster account. I had a blast there, at my grandma's I mean, not at that CC. I guess one of the perks of being away is that, once you come back, you're treated like a king!

Poor mak had to cook every dish that I want! From Bubur Lambuk *yumm!!* to karipap kosong *with no fillings, just the pastry*, she made sure I get everything that I want! Even if it means coercing Acu and Mak Lang to go to the Pasar Borong in the wee hours of the morning! It's not just my grandma, my mum too! A few days before I came back, I had her took a day leave, the day after I arrived so that I can go and have breakfast with her and my dad at our usual stall in TTJ! I even asked her to cook my favourite meal, Masak Lemak Ketam Cili Api! *drools* I'm so loving this power!

So far, my week here in Malaysia is so packed! I was never at home for the first three weeks, constantly out with my friends here, in Seremban or those in KL. I had to visit almost all of my close relatives just to say hi and see how they are. But it was fun albeit slightly tiring. I wanna write an entry detailing every place that I went but that seem too much of a work to do so I decided a long entry summarizing my trip would have suffice. I don't know, I'm just too lazy to write all the long details and knowing myself, I just know I'm gonna stray away from the topic once I start typing, unlike Aneesah and Kak Odey, who seems to be the master of long detailed entry. Both have been very productive these days especially Kak Odey! Anyway, its not like I have anything interesting to talk about. So I guess I'd just have to settle with this one.

Wanna know something? I typed this entry on my iPod using the Notes application in a Komuter to Seremban! Since I couldn't find the time to write one on a PC, I figured I'd make use of the things I have with now. I just got this application from the recent update. Of course, I'd have to write this entry all over again at home, but that's not the point! The point is that I have the means to record the things I wanted to say when the light bulb blinked! Anyway, I'm actually on my home from a meeting organised by SMSA. Since I'm one of the committee members for NEXt'08, I had to attend the meeting held at one of the committee members house in Bangi. Wait, I just realised I've never mentioned anything about NEXt here! NEXt is actually a Nasheed competition held annually by SMSA but I'm not gonna bore you with the details now. Well, more on NEXt in my next entry * next in my next! * I actually went to Kinokuniya right after the meeting this afternoon. I just had to pay a visit to my favorite bookstore! I thought of just browsing around and do some window shopping but I just couldn't resist the temptation! I bought about 5 books eventhough I only had RM50 in my wallet! Earlier in the day, Azweed, my senior in Sheffield, told me that I can just use my debit card here instead of withdrawing cash from the ATM machine. So I thought I try my luck there. Lucky for me, it worked!!! Kalau tak, gile malu! So now, I'm trying to finish some fantasy fiction from Trudi Canavan. Book one of The Age of Five; The Priestess of The White. So far so good. Interesting I must say. ~Hurmmm~ Oh yeah, that's another reason why I haven't been able to update my blog.

Urghh - I have to go now. I just don't have the energy to write anymore. I'm fasting today, by the way. Need to 'ganti' those days I skipped last year. . . During my surgerylah! Don't get any wrong ideas!

See you guys later. Sorry this entry is short. Gonna try and write a much longer entry after this.

P/S: To En. Saya, this is what I do for my holiday! Happy gillz!!! Did that answer your question?

P P/S: Congrats to Mira and Aneesah! See you guys in the UK!!!!!

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I'm killing time!

2008-07-07T07:45:00.001+01:00

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~Phew~

Finally! I've been trying to connect to the internet for a quite a while already. I'm now at Dubai International Airport and I'm using their free WiFi to write my blog here. So this is a live update from the airport though by the time you read this entry, I'm gonna be in Malaysia already. I need to put this one on hold before publishing to put in a few more details.

So what happened? I just got out of a long flight from Manchester to Dubai and I have a layover of about 3 hours before my next flight and everyone knows that airport has free wireless service, so why not take the advantage? I arrived in Manchester at about 4 pm even though the check in counter won't be open until 7 pm. I decided to get there early to avoid the hassle of getting on the jam-packed-train in the evening. You'd be surprise how crowded the train can be in the evening. I was mainly concerned of the luggage compartment 'cause I'm, after all, coming with a 20kg bag and the over head can't exactly accommodate that kind weight can it? S, I need to fight for that luggage compartment! Anyway, the flight was okay and alhamdulillah, it landed safely here in Dubai after a long 6 hours. 6 hours of sitting in economy class seat, you know the pain right? Thank god the food was great though! I just loved it! I slept for most of the journey and watched a couple of episodes of How I Met Your Mother. That show was freakin hilarious! I've never watched it before though I've heard of it for several times. So that's one more show on my download list I guess?

I arrived in Dubai at about 6.45 am local time. I got through the security, which was embarrassing I must say, since I had to take off my belt and my jeans was so loose that I had to hold on to the front of the jeans so that it won't slip while I took off my shoes at the same time, and all the while my head goes,

"Why didn't you take off your shoes FIRST, you blithering idiot!"

After that I went out and I was surprised, not because of the exquisite and beautiful interior of the airport, it's because of the crowd. This place is freakin pact with people! Most of'em are passengers I guess waiting for their connecting flight like me. It is imposibble, I repeat, IMPOSIBBLE, to get an empty seat here! I had to settle with this carpeted floor next to some guy who probably have been sleeping quite a while already based on his snore! Seriously, its a ship wreck here. Passengers are lying everywhere with their blankets and their backpack for pillow. I got myself a cup of vanilla latte, found this 'seat', switched on my laptop and here I am, rambling my heart out just to kill time. Its about 8.45 now and my gate won't be opened until 9.45 and last I checked, there is still no information on flight EK0342 on the departure screen. Guess they're gonna put it on later. Anyway, yeah. That's my layover story and like I said, I'm just doing this to kill time. After this, I'm gonna continue on my reading. I'm currently trying to finish Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes. Go and Google the title. I'm just too lazy to put the link here

Ooh, I got all my stuff out this morning (UK time) 'cause the senior went and opened my room for me. Tee-hee I packed the things that I thought I'm gonna used in Malaysia and a couple of shirts. And alhamdulillah, I passed the baggage inspection in Manchester. I was afraid that my things gonna exceed the 20kg limit. Well, technically, I did exceed the limit by 2 kg but the lady in charged didn't say anything. So I guess I'm through? Lucky me!

Gotta go now. Gonna check the departure board again

~sigh~

Bye!

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News Update!

2008-07-04T23:48:00.002+01:00

At the risk of sounding like a 12 year old girl,

Yay, he answered the phone!!!

I can go in tomorrow! He'll open it up for me

Thank god for technologies!

Yea yea boleh ambik barang!

Tagged Entry 1.0

2008-07-04T21:55:00.004+01:00

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Oh my god!!! I'm officially screwed! I'm freaking out right now! Okay, so you know that I'm in the process of moving out right? So I got the keys to my house for next year a few days ago. They came together with the bedroom keys and since we have 7 bedroom, we had to vote which room we'd be staying in next semester. I got a room but I kinda don't like it, so I switched it with my other roommate. The thing is, my roommate is not here but his room will be occupied for a few weeks by a final year senior. He kinda don't know that I made the switched but I did leave him a little post-it note saying that I'm switching the room and left the keys of my old room, in the old room. So there I was just now, heaving my 20kg bag to my room only to find that its locked! "WHAT THE EFF?!!" How am I supposed to get in now? I imagined he didn't get that little note I put but when I went to my old room, I saw that he already put his stuff in there! So he puts his stuff in my old room, AND at the same time, lock my room???!!!

I hate this! I'm supposed to finish up my packing tonight so that I'd have the whole day tomorrow to clean out my room here in Opal!!! And not to forget, all my stuff for home is in that locked room!!! What if I can't find him by tomorrow? What if he's already on a trip to god knows where, considering he's a final year so he don't really have that much things left to do here?!

I'm freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you believe my luck? I just knew things like this gonna happen! I always screw up at the last moment! I just can't believe this! I tried getting in touch with him but I can't seem to reach him. He lives in Opal currently and I even begged Pak Cik Opal here *Opal's maintenance staff* to give me his room number so that I can buzz his flat, but that didn't work either. Pak Cik Opal even offered to open his door for me, which I gladly took btw, even though he's not allowed to do so! Still I couldn't find him! I want my stuff!!! Arghh!!!

Anyway, here's the tag entry as promised.

8 Itu Ini

8 Things I'm passionate about

Food!!! - Face it, every one likes food. For the last couple of months I have this weird craving for lemon flavoured dishes. I just can't get enough of 'em. I stocked up my fridge with every lemon dessert that I can buy. Lemon cheesecakes, lemon custard, Starbuck's Sicilian Lemon Cupcake, lemon merengue *all time favorite!!!*, lemon muffin, lemon slice etc etc. Anything that even has the remote taste of lemon, I'd buy! My flatmates were surprised to see all my lemon dishes!

"What's with you and all these lemon stuff?"

Books! - Can't get enough of'em. I got stacks of book in my room, and some I didn't even get the chance to read even though I bought them like 3 months ago. The other day I ordered 3 Cups of Tea from Blackwell and I initially, I planned on buying that one piece alone but I ended up buying another two books just because a little sticker on the book that says '3 for 2' 3 books for the price of 2! I just couldn't resist the temptation!

Music
Sappy movies
Apple's merchandise - I'm pretty sure its just a phase. It'll go away.
Shopping! - Nothing is more relieving than a little retail therapy!
Beautiful places even if its just someone else's backyard. I don't care!
Tea - I'm not really a big fan of coffee. I find tea more relaxing

8 Things I say too often

Motifla kau nie!
Gosh!
Ei perempuan gile!
Kot - like, "ok kot?" or "Best gile kot!"
Whatever!
Biadap eyh?
Choi
Bodoh - I know its a bit rude, but I don't really mean what I say

8 Books I've read recently

Things I Want My Daughters To Know - Elizabeth Noble
Home Is Where The Heart Is - Billie Letts
Marshmallows for Breakfast - Dorothy Koomson
Love in The Present Tense - Catherine Ryan Hyde
Nineteen Minutes - Jodi Picoult
Elements of Physical Chemistry
Shriver Atkins Inorganic Chemistry
Housecroft General Chemistry

*Okay, so I didn't exactly finish reading #4 and #5, Its still in the process*

8 Things To Do Before I Die

*Owh, the Bucket List? This should be fun! *

Bungee Jumping
Travel all around the world!
Be in 2 places at once - Sounds familiar?
Hug a real tiger or lion - What?? Its not my fault they're cute!
Of course, go for Hajj
Banyakkan amalan baik
Put my hands in a bucket full of cockroaches for 5 seconds . . . make that 2 seconds!
Hugged my parents for the last time

8 Songs I could Listen To Over and Over Again

Hurmm, this one's a toughie. I have to browse my iTunes jap. Banyak nie

The World Spins Madly On - The Weepies
Warm Whisper - Missy Higgins
Breakable - Ingrid Michaelson
Come On Get Higher - Matt Nathanson
Beautiful Disaster - Jon McLaughlin
Angel - Sarah McLachlan
Aozora No Namida - Hitomi Takashi
Pictures Of You - The Last Goodnight

8 Things I Learned Last Year

Patience is a virtue
Life is made of things that you choose, not plan
I love my family more than anything else in this world
Friends in need are friends indeed
Life is full of surprises
Gotta love karma, what goes around comes around
Life is beautiful, but its complicated and we barely make it
When you're lost, go back to your roots. Have faith, cause its the sure thing that steers you back to reality.

8 People to Tag

Mira
Kimmy
Aneesah
Kak Mira
Hairi *Dah buat, so buat for second time! hehehe*
Kak Odey *Dah buat kot?*
Tanggang *Ak tau ko mesti takkan buat punye!*
Kak Zack

Cheers guys!

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post-exam post?

2008-07-02T19:26:00.003+01:00

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*Gasped!* Only one entry in June?! Boy I sure have been very productive, haven't I? Anyway, a lot has happened these past few weeks. My final examination for the spring semester ended June 10th and the result is due in about a week time. I'm keeping my hopes up despite all the crap I wrote on the paper especially AMA 101: Mathematics for Chemists, which till this very day, I still cannot imagine even the slightest idea of how it is all connected to chemistry. I don't really hate that subject, I just thought its a bit much for my course. Whatever it is, its all in the past now and I'm really hoping that I don't fail that paper, 'cause if I do, I'd have to take a re-sit exam in KL with a hefty fee of £222! I don't wanna pay that! The other paper was okay. Not that great but okay. Just so and so. The first fundamental paper, CHM 1002 A, consist of two parts of organic chemistry, both 1 and 2, and the first part of physical chemistry, Thermodynamics. I'm a bit relieved because I'm pretty confident with my organic chemistry answers. Thank god for my coloured notes! I'm not so sure about the physical though, 'cause I only read the notes during the last few hours before the exam. I pulled an all nighter for that paper, in fact I did that for every paper that I have this semester. I don't know, I feel like I can understand more when I'm studying at night. But hey, don't we all? Maybe its the serenity of night or maybe its simply because I had too much sleep during the day!

Second fundamental paper wasn't all that great. I spend too much time on Dr. Winter's inorganic question and ended up not having enough time for Hippler's physical chemistry part. His part was the easiest of the 6 lecturers. I should have done his question first. The question was about rate of reaction and a question that requires us to draw a graph and interpret the data from the graph. I think it was the pseudo-first order reaction? It was actually easy but given how much I suck at data handling and graph drawing, I didn't quite get the correct answer. We were supposed to calculate the activation energy from the graph and usually it is around 10³ ~ish J but I got somewhere around 10⁶ J! I only had a couple of minutes left so I couldn't alter the value.

"Please put your pen down"

"10⁶??? 10⁶? 1 MJ of energy?!!!! Are you freakin kiddin me!!!"

I think that may be caused by the un-steepness *is such word even exist?!* of my graph. I use a large scale so ended up with a nearly horizontal line graph. Whatever!

I do think its a bit too late to ramble about my exam but ahh, what the heck. I just need a place to vent. Its that simple

Anyway, the rest of the paper was like I said, just okay. If you must know, this is how react after exam. I don't really feel the stress of post exam like some people. I just deal with it. I mean, what's the use of moping around things that has already happened kan? No matter how much you sulk or cry, you can't change the fact that its in the past now. A bit harsh I know, but that's the truth.

Its already 8.23 pm now but it is still not dark yet. Maghrib these days is around 9.30 pm. The sun rises around 4.45 am so that makes Subuh here at about 2.30 am! I always know that the day is longer during the summer but when I'm here, it still amazes me somehow. Like, its real *Of course its real. Why wouldn't it be real you idiot?!* Kinda funny actually. Guess I'm still used to 12 hour day and night huh? Ooh, remember that I told you earlier that the result is out some time around next week? Well, yes but they, as in the department's staff, actually has already obtained our final result and have already sent it out to our personal tutor! I got the news from K.A and after much persuasion from the girls, I finally caved in and ask my personal tutor for my result. Sadly, he can't reveal anything to me yet. He said I have to wait for the result day. But, here's the best part, he said that from what he saw on my file, I shouldn't really be worried! That I should be having a happy holiday time right now! Tell me, was that a good sign? I thought it was, until I wrote it here. Now I feel like he's telling me to be ready and a have a good time first, 'cause my holiday's about to take a wild spin??!! Nooooo!!!! I hope that's not true. I really hope not!

Ooh, I got to go now. I shouldn't be writing this considering I still haven't packed my things yet. I'm moving out in a couple of days so expect a sappy moving out entry from me later. And tag entries from Aneesah and Azwan. Will also update about my flight this coming Sunday. Expect a lot of entries from me these coming few days, provided that I have the strength to actually write it here. Maybe I'll end up posting a podcast instead? Who knows?

Cheers guys!

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s***

2008-06-02T04:56:00.003+01:00

Oh s***!!! I'm running outta time here!

lots more to do!

So little time!

Damn BGT!!!

Why can't there be 48 hours a day???!!!

I want me cookie and me music!!! (ii)

2008-05-24T05:41:00.000+01:00

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*Warning, seriously-crappy-rants about music!!! You've been warned!*

Well since I blabbed about music so much here in my previous entry, might as well do some promotion right? Don't mind me, I need to keep myself busy to stay sane so I turn to my ever-so-helpful companion; my blog. Here's a few artists I've been listening to over and over again

First is Sara Bareilles. I kinda stumbled on one of her songs while surfing Youtube. She got great voice and when she sang live, its so magical. I really like her song, Gravity. I have like 4 copies of the songs all with different arrangements!*Live, Accapella etc etc* But that was from her first album, Careful Confessions. The second one is good one too. Little Voices.

Recommended tracks:

One Sweet Love
Many The Miles
City
Love Song *this one's really popular now! Made its way to the big screen in 'Made of Honour'*

Next is Matt Nathanson!!! He's like my favourite singer now! His deep and sometimes husky voice can really sway your emotion! I just love his songs! I'm officially in love with his songs and mind you, I even Googled for his concert tickets in the UK but heh, tough luck. He's not gonna be here in any time soon. I just hoped he will though 'cause I'm definitely going!!! Its so weird that I've never heard of him before considering he's been in the music scene for a while now. I found his page on last.Fm when I browse the 'Similar Artist' section I already have two of his album, Beneath these Fireworks and Some Mad Hope. Oddly enough, I'm still not bored with his songs especially The Weight of it All. Here's Some Mad Hope;

Recommended tracks:

Car Crash
The Weight of it All
Heartbreak World
Come on Get Higher

Sebenanye sume pon best so dga sendiri lah ekk ;p The next one is some folksy stuff. THE WEEPIES!!! Their song is really cute! LOL The first song I listened to, was World Spins Madly On, on one of Grey's Anatomy episode. I really like how their song can be slow and catchy and yet so uplifting in a way. I still like that song and I even scribbled the lyrics on my desk back in Cemara! They just release their latest album; Hideaway and I being an internet savvy these days have already downloaded them! I've listened to it dozens of times already and keep going back to it, and probably will continue to for a while. This is one of those albums that, although it will not be a classic, it is one that will delve into the listeners mind who will soon be singing the chorus to Hideaway in the shower! *maybe that's just me.* This one's the first album that I have, Say I Am You;

Recommended tracks:

World Spins madly on
Painting by Chagall
Living in Twilight
Nobody Knows Me At All

This one's the latest one, Hideaway;

Recommended tracks:

Antartica
Hideaway
How you survived the war

Next is Matt White. Found him on Yahoo Music. He was featured as one of the artist on Who's Next section. Quite good and his songs are really easy on the ears. Oh you should also check out some of the artists on that section 'cause the other day I saw an Indonesian Band! Can't remember the name but I can understand well what they're singing 'cause its BM!

Recommended tracks:

Love
Best Days
Miracles

This one is Matt Kearney. I don't know if I'm right but his, is a fusion of rap and pop??? Listen to him and you'll understand but I really like his Breathe in Breathe Out, *which is weird since the track is not included in this CD* Grey's Anatomy official music video for the 3rd season. Got some other good tracks too. Great CD overall! *Nice cover too!*

Recommended tracks:

Undeniable
Bullet
Nothing left to loose
What's a boy to do
Crashing Down

Up next is One Republic. I have no idea how I'm stuck with this band since I only wanted the Apologize song at first. I got the album and without even realizing what I was doing, I replayed all the tracks and found myself humming to them. Weird huh? But they got some good tracks here. And during AI's result night, they even did a duet with Archie, which I found very interesting since Archie has never really sang songs like that, but it turned out good! Good job guys!

Recommended tracks:

Apologize
Stop & Stare
Tyrant
Goodbye Apathy
Come Home

Okay this one is really special to me. *Gedik gile!* Boyce Avenue! I was looking for Carrie Underwood's So Small video actually when I clicked on their channel. The lead vocalist actually sang So Small with just a guitar! I fell in love instantly and I keep searching for their album but to no avail since they're not really a registered band. They had like three singles at first and were only sold at iTunes and they mostly did covers of other artists like Rihanna, Ne-yo, Natasha Bedingfield etc etc. One day I opened their channel again to see what they've been up to and guess what? They got this video!!!

They've finally released their first album!!! I was all excited then that I downloaded the whole album on iTunes! It was worth it I tell you! I'm looking forward for their next album already!!!

Recommended tracks:

Hear Me Now
Dare To Believe
Find Me
All This While
SUME PON BEST!!!!

This one is one of the earliest country music I listened to but definitely not my first since I'm exposed to country music ever since I was little *I blame abah for this one * Their first song that I heard was 'What hurts the most' and that one, was one freakishly sad song I tell you. I really think so!

Recommended tracks:

Every Day
She Goes All the Way *ft. Jamie Foxx*
Still Feels good
Winner at A losing Game

Another country band that I like is The Wreckers although they only have 1 album. I mainly like the songs 'cause its the only time I can hear Michelle Branch sings again. I like the country version of Michelle Branch but I'd prefer the more rocker version of her. Gosh, I still remember her first song, Everywhere! And most of the songs from her first album was quite good. Its a shame she didn't keep on doing solo records. Anyway, I first heard of The Wreckers on One Tree Hill. They sang The Good Kind. They're okay, pleasant but not great.

Recommended tracks:

Tennessee
Cigarettes
The Good Kind
Lay Me Down
Crazy People

Last one would be Shawn Colvin. Her songs are quite different from other singer that I listened to. Was introduced to her by Felicity. Not really a new artist but I just recently remembered her when I was shopping for shirts. I asked the cashier for the name of the song and artist and he told me its Shawn Colvin. Hehehehe What an odd place huh? But sometimes the band or artist that we heard randomly at odd places are the best kind of band that we can find kan? Like the her or the Cary Brothers or even Michael Tolcher, which I'm still trying to find ways to download since his songs are like totally impossible to find! I've searched everywhere! Anyway, here's Shawn Colvin's These Four Walls;

Recommended tracks:

Fill Me Up
Venetian Blue
Even here we are
Summer Dress

I guess that pretty much sums up all the kind of music I listened too. *Gosh, how vain does that sound???* Other than popular artist like Daughtry, Nickelback, Carrie Underwood, Kelly Clarkson, Celine Dion or Siti Nurhaliza or Anuar Zain or ~~Hujan????~~ or others yang seangkatan dengannye.

If you must know, this is exactly what happened if orang syok sendiri menulis. Gigih nie dok cite pasal artis. Buku belambak2 xbace dok membuang mase kat sini! cesss!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Nak Balik Mesia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway...

~Bye

Cheers

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Now playing: Shawn Colvin - Anywhere You Go
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Run Shay Run!

2008-05-24T02:53:00.004+01:00

Okay I found this one one the net and it was really moving. I'm not ashamed to admit that I cried reading it. Just thought I'd share it here. . .

SHAY'S HOMERUN

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: 'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?'

The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.' Then he told the following story:Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?'

Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball. However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.

Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first! Run to first!' Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled. Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!' Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home. All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!' As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!' Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.

'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate. The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces. If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message. Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.'

So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

Source: http://pukullima.blogspot.com/

I want me cookie and me music!!!

2008-05-23T19:24:00.006+01:00

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Now playing: David Cook - The Time of My Life
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Gosh, it's like an epidemic! Everything is ending. Most of the shows I watched either ended last week or this week. It's no surprise actually, since its a well known fact, that they all stop the production for summer break. Kinda like school kan?

Anywayyyyy... American Idol's grand finale was last Wednesday! Cookie won!!! Thank god! Nah, I didn't really mind if either of'em won 'cause they're both great singers. But I like Cook more than Archuleta. I was rooting for Cook ever since Brooke White got booted out of the show. I liked Archie but I don't know, there's something about him that just seem a lil'bit off to me. Remember last season's Melinda Doolittle? Yeah, kinda like that. Besides, he's just too young. But kudos to him though for putting up a good fight. I still like his voice and damn, he made me cry with his rendition of Imagine and that second song, In This Moment! Okay, I didn't really cry but I'm touched enough to well up my eyes! *So I'm easily touched, sue me!!! * If you watched the final, you've got to love David Cook's version of The World I Know! I mean he practically made me listen to Collective Soul all over again!!! I used to listen them all the time but its was hard finding their songs back in Malaysia. Even Ares doesn't really have much song from them an mind you, this was way back when torrent application was a total inexistent to me! So now that I'm more computer-literate, I'll start downloading their songs and plus, I got an iTunes account so I can pretty much find their songs there but of course, I'd have to pay for that.

* Just finished downloading all the finale songs!*

When people ask me

"What kind of music you listen too? "

I would always hesitate to answer. I don't exactly know how to answer them so I just tell them,

"I listen to just about everything that's listen-able, pleasant to the ears."

See, I don't really have a specific genre or type of music that I listened to. Its a mix of everything. A bit of rock, country, blues and even nasyid. I still listen to boy bands like Westlife, N'Sync or even Backstreet Boys! I don't mind listening to them despite what others might say. It's good music, keeps me entertained so why should I be ashamed? If you don't like it then screw you! I have my own likes and dislikes. You not liking boy bands is just the same as me not liking Hip-Hop or Rap. What's so weird about that? You have your views and I have mine. ~sigh

Well anyway, if you browse my iTunes library, you'll see that most of the songs come from either tv shows or movies that I watched. There's something special about listening to tracks in a scene be it tv shows or movies. There's something magical about it that just hit you right on the spot, tugging your heartstrings, made you feel all giddy or just simply filled you with warmth. Its one of the things in life that's hard to explain but it just occur. Human minds are complex you know? But I guess its safe to say now that I listened to mostly indie band or folksy stuff *I think?*. Nevertheless, I do enjoy rock songs occasionally but I can never, I repeat, NEVER listen to Rap or Hip-Hop songs!!! I just ~urghhh! They're not singing, they're talking. And the lyrics are sometimes *most of the times I believe!* soo obscene that it is impossible for me to listen without hearing that annoying censored-beep sound! Back in KL, I don't know if you guys still remember this, there's this one song from Adam AF2 that I really hate. Uhmm...I think it was 'Hai'? Yeah I think that's it. The lyrics was so... ... ... I don't know! Words just can't describe it! I mean, like its so stupid! I don't give a damn how you got the girls phone number or where you hang out with your friends! I want my freaking song!!!

...

...

Gosh I'm so bitter these days! Never mind my rant, its all just pre-exam stress

*Sorry to those who feel offended*

But hey, different people have different opinion right? So I'm guess I'm still entitled to say what's on my mind.

Anyway, if you wanna know what I'm listening to these days, click on the Last.FM tab on top of the page. It'll take you straight to my profile there and you can check out all the songs that I scrobbled using iTunes. They have some cool features over there like the weekly artists rank, top songs played on your media player and other stuff too. I just have to switch on my iTunes and the rest is their job. If you go there, just ignore the overplayed Phoebe Buffay. She's not a 'real' artist, she's a character from Friends and I just put her songs in 'cause I like it. They're hilarious! Like this one;

Owh gotta go. Gotta check on my laundry for a sec!

~Bye

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Now playing: Celine Dion ft. R. Kelly - I Am Your Angel
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DH is over guys!

2008-05-20T01:04:00.008+01:00

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Now playing: Koda Kumi - 1000 Words (Japan)
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*Spoiler disini!!*

*Seriously-crappy-rants about tv shows here! Turned around if you're not a fan! You've been warned!!! *

Yes folks, these sexy housewives just ended their season last Sunday with some very unforgettable moments and leaving us in a cliffhanger, wondering what exactly will happen after this? Will Lynette finally be happy with her family now that her husband's evil love-child is out of sight? Will Gabrielle and Carlos finally get the family they always wanted? Will Bree and Orson patch things up and be the perfectly happy family that Bree always imagined? What will happen to Susan and Mike, the love of her life, now that Julie's out and of course, the newly-arrived Maynard Delfino in their oh-so-complicated life? Will Katherine and Dylan stay in Wisteria Lane? And yes, will the neighbourhood slut, Edie Brit, come back in the upcoming season? So many questions, yet so little times. Tune in to Desperate Housewives this fall and get all the juicy details.

Well actually we all know what happen to them after the final episode, if you watch it that is, 'cause the writers show us a glimpse of their lives 5 years after the final 'incident.' The final scene show us the girls playing their weekly game of poker and of course, with Mary-Alice's voice over. They finally let Katherine in the group so I guess she's still a Wisteria Lane resident, Gaby and Carlos finally have the children they always wanted. They got two girls! Lynette is still the same, trying to control her ever-so-uncontrollable sons, Bree is a cook book author and her son, Andrew is acting as her agent. Looks like this flame-haired jezebel patched things up with Orson but I wonder if Orson turned himself in for running over Mike with his car. Speaking of Mike, this hunky plumber is MIA in 5 years time . No signs of him anywhere but the most shocking of it all, is that Susan has someone new in her life. Instead of coming home to Mike Delfino, we find this damsel-in-distress coming back to the yummy Gale Harold. (Gale is best known for his role in Vanished or uhmm *cough-cough* Queer as Folk.) What happen to Susan? Did her knight in shining armor, or buttoned-down suit suburbanite in her case, really come to the rescue?

~Hurmm . . .I just love this show! They weaved in more surprise after another in this final 2 hour of the season. Though I'd really like to see Edie Brit making a comeback in the next season. I guess they switched her character with Katherine Mayfair, which is okay by the way, since I kinda like Katherine's dark and twisted past. If you've watched the final episode, you'll know what I mean. But still, it'd be fun if the neighbourhood whore come back and wreak havoc for one last time. I like her. =) And I can't wait for next season! I'm dying to see who Gale Harold's gonna be!!! If you watched last Sunday episode, you're gonna love how the girls did a cover-up for Katherine. Housewives to the rescue! It's a noble thing to do, or should I say, the right thing to do, albeit slightly disturbing *covering up a murder case!* But that guy was just evil through and through. I think that last episode was the best episode of DH I've ever watched! Hands down! Am so psyched for the next season!

Anyway, yeah. If you still haven't noticed, I'm the NO.1 fan of DH and totally head over heels for them!! I started watching the show back in 2005 I think. I didn't watch the first few episodes because I was in INTEC at that time and don't really get to see what's new on telly since I'm living in a hostel and all. The first episode I watch was the episode where Bree is in a marriage counsel with her husband. I thought it was interesting because these housewives, they're. . . different from one another and yet they're still friends. One crave for love, the other for attention. This one pictures her family being the perfect family she always dreamed of when the reality is that her family is nowhere near perfect while the other one, a struggling mother adapting into the lives of a suburban housewives and domestic chores when she herself long to be the career-driven woman she once was. You see, each of them is different and over the years their lives become complicated with more problems and trials. So why is this show so addictive? What makes them so addictive that keeps people glued to the television swayed with humour and emotion that lingers long after the credits rolled? Maybe amidst all the witty dialogues, haunting voice-over or snide remarks we find a sense of reality that we can relate to. Friendship, secrets, lies and even sexual desire. The show depicts all these things in a lighter note, that we can laugh and the problems and trials we faced isn't the worst thing that could happen to us. ~Hiks *better stop before merapu lebih jauh!*

So now that DH is over, I'm gonna concentrate on other shows that probably gonna end this week. After that I just have to wait for next fall! ~ sigh lamenye~

~bye

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Now playing: The Goo Goo Dolls - Feel the Silence
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Procrastination is never good ~sigh

2008-05-17T15:30:00.005+01:00

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Now playing: The Weepies - Living In Twilight
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Yay, the weekend's here! Been a long week. Don't you just love the weekends where you can spend your time relaxing after a long week? Feels like a massively huge burden have been lifted from my shoulders! Next week would be the final week of class and the week after that I have my final examination, starting with Fundamentals of Chemistry 1 on May 27th. No study week whatsoever. We've been complaining about this ever since the start of this semester. Those from other uni have their 1 week study but not us. ~booo

Ooh, I forgot that I have spanish final exam next Thursday! There'll be writing and listening paper. They don't have any speaking test for beginners level, which I'm grateful for, since my spoken spanish is so bad! But I'm a lil' sad too 'cause after this, there won't be any Spanish class for me. I'm gonna miss them I still remember asking my classmate Garret, why did he take Spanish. You know what he said?

"Oh, I just wanted to learn one of the sexy language of the world the get all the chicks"

"Ah, Garret that is so pathetic"

He just laughed. I asked him why he didn't take French classes 'cause I got the impression that girls think French language is sexy. He retorts that French is too hard for him, which I know must be true, 'cause if you see hear him talk Spanish, you'll understand. *Nak terbelit lidah die agaknye! LOL*

So yes, I am gonna miss Spanish class. I was going to take the intermediate class but they don't have any class for autumn semester, which is really a bummer 'cause that means I have to take it on the spring semester and knowing myself quite well, I just know that I would've forgotten all the things I learned this semester by the time the spring class starts!

Besides,I don't think I have that much free time next year considering the fact that I have full 120 credits hour with chemistry course next year!!! I got the registration slip yesterday and I have 3 modules of each physical, inorganic and organic chemsitry! Big 'yay' for me! *am so screwed!!*

Oh yeah, I had my final lab session last Tuesday! No more lab for me! And the best part is that I already finish the write-ups and already handed it in even though I was supposed to hand it in next Tuesday! The experiment was, as usual, long and tiring but still, it was fun. Maybe because it was the last lab. Experiment's yield was quite good. Almost all of them were over 80% except for the last section. I only got about 40%. Yield production is very important in Organic and Inorganic lab because it determines the borderline of your write-ups grade. I still like the experiment though because I get to see all the beautiful crystals. Who knows Iodine can be that pretty??? Anyway, now that lab is over, I'm gonna have the whole slot free next week! And no more crazy ramblings on a Tuesday night!

I seriously have so many things to do but still I'm procrastinating here! I'm just not in the mood to pick up that ugly-blue-thick physical chemistry book that have been lying dormant collecting dust for the past few weeks! I don't like using that book 'cause of the paper quality. I don't know about others but I'm very picky when it comes to book. Be it novels or revision books, they all have to be perfect. That Physical Chem book come straight from India. I bought it through eBay and they use, I daresay, the lowest quality paper ever! I feel like I'm tearing the page every time I flip through the pages. There's no colour just plain black text and diagram. Would it kill them to put some colours in it???? ~sheesh The same goes to novels. I don't like reading novels with text so tiny that it makes my head go all dizzy and feel the need to just throw the book to a wall after reading it! See, I'm very demanding for someone who don't read much these days kan?

Wanna know what I'm addicted to these days? TV shows!!!! But that's not really new kan? Those who knew me have known for quite some time that I'm such a couch potato and watch like every single show on telly. These days I'm most addicted to Brothers and Sisters and I just can't wait for the next season! I don't know if they have this show in Malaysia but if they do, you should watch it! You'll fall in love with the Walker family! I love the fact that its about family values and how family stay together through thick and thin. The Walkers are a crazy bunch and whenever they get together for dinner or stuff, they always ended up in big family fight and all hell breaks loose and the secrets come out! Its hilarious! They just ended the season last week, I think? Apparently more secrets about the family will be revealed. *Who the heck is Ryan??? *

Next would be Gossip Girl! *yes I do watch that show!* Its such a hype now that practically everyone is watching it! They're ending the season next week so I'm gonna tune in. Grey's Anatomy is a must-see show for me. I'm addicted to this show like ants to sugar! I need my weekly dose of Meredith-angst! Oh yeah, Desperate Housewives is down to the final 2 episodes but Edie Brit's gone?? I was like, WTH?!!!! No! I like Edie! I know she's a whore and all but I still like her character! Just hope the writers gonna bring her back in

Uhmm, lets see, what else?

Nope. Nothing else. That's all the dirt about me these days.

Gotta go.

Need to catch-up on my tutorials. Last one for this semester!!

July 6th! Yay!!!

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Now playing: Missy Higgins - Night Minds
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I just love this song!

2008-05-17T13:56:00.006+01:00

I woke dreaming we had broke
Dreaming you left me for someone new
And you cried, drying those brown eyes
Crying you're sorry - sorry won't do

But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Last night, we had a great fight
I fell asleep in a horrible state
Then dreamt that you loved my best friend
My heart would not mend - seemed it was fate

But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Sometimes I forget to love you like I should
But I'd never leave you - no, I never would
I never would

Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
'Til we fall asleep tonight

~Oh, oh, oh oohhh lalalalala

of classes and mother's day...

2008-05-12T16:04:00.009+01:00

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Now playing: Sheila Majid ft. Zainal Abidin - Ikhlas Tapi Jauh
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I'm playing hooky today. I'm sorry Dr. Mole but I just cannot stuff anymore of your formulas in my head! I don't wanna learn about the Argand Diagram, Euler's relationship, hyperbolic functions or why z³=8 has a mile long working methods that I just feel the need to bang my head with the calculator every time I see that question!

No!

No!!

No!!!

Enough!!! I can't take anymore of maths. I didn't sign up for this course. It's just too damn hard. Why am I stuck with course while others are having a great time with basic mathematics class? Don't mind me, I'm just being dramatic. Blame it on the impending final exam in 2 weeks! How I wish time would just fly and fast-forward to July 6th. The day I would be getting back to my one and only true home. Maths class with Dr. Mole is seriously tiring. Not because the way he teaches, which is fine by the way, but the complexity of the topics. Its like I'm taking further maths! He even throws in some physics topic into the course content. Like before Easter, I was writing his notes when he said,

"Okay, now we're gonna go into the next section of the course, Simple Harmonic Motion or SHM"

*Gasp*

I actually gasped! And the class was so quite too! I swear to god I didn't see that one coming. Its bad enough that I have to learn it in A-level, now I have to face it all over again in Maths?!! Its not just that, I also have to see physics in my physical chemistry module too!!! We always complained having to learn physics-related stuff in this course. I guess I just have to face the fact that as a chemist, you can never run away from physics. These two field (phy and chem) are really closely related to each other. Like reaaallly close! ~sigh

Ironic isn't it? I'm complaining about my maths class and how I have trouble catching up and yet, I 'm still skipping the class? Someday I'll change . . .

Owh yes, I wanna wish a happy belated Mothers Day to both my mum and mak. Mum is my real mum and mak is my grandma whom I lived with until my parents move to Seremban. I actually called my real mum mak too but I'm just gonna say mum here to avoid any confusion. So:

Happy Mothers Day mak! You're the best mum one could ever wished for! Thanks for all your support and undying love for your ungrateful son yang berada jauh diperantauan nie. Slamat Hari Ibu and kite sayang kat mak =)

Love,

Mommy's boy #2! ;p

Mommy's boy is the term given to the boys in the family by abah. #1 is abang, and 2 is me. See, whenever we called home, we always asked for mum instead of abah. So I guess abah got a bit jealous. But its always been like that. For instance, every time my brother and I need money from abah, we would ask mum to ask from him for us. The 'via' route I called.

Hehehe. . . Anyway, Sori mum. Kite ponteng kelas hari ni. Pasnie xbuat lagi dah

Back when I was a kid I used to skip sekolah agama all the time. Of course both abah and 'mum' was working and the only one who knew about my playing hooky, was mak. Good-hearted mak would always provides me with an alibi so that I won't be scolded by abah. Not just me, Amir and Anis would also turn to mak for alibi. Anis was the worst. She skipped her classes like everyday. There was this one time when mum wasn't working and Anis bersiap-siap kat rumah. Kononnye nak pegi skolah agama. So my mum gave her some pocket money and she sees her off at the gate. So dear sweet Anis wave her bye-bye and went on her way. What mum doesn't know was that she didn't actually go to school, that she turned around the corner, when mum was out of sight and took a detour to Grandma's house. There she would make some excuses like sakit perutlah, penatlah, laparlah and one time she even said that her ustazah sakit jantung! Like I'm gonna believe that!

Anyway, Back to my lil' sis story. I'm not sure how mum found out about this little 'incident' but she knows, because this little story become like one of our anecdote that we shared whenever we talked about our childhood stuff. But yeah, a mother knows what kind of trouble or stuff her children get themselves into kan? They just knew. Maybe grandma did tell her about kakak, because mak would tell mum everything about us. For your information, my brother and I stayed with my grandma ever since we were little. We have like 2 homes. Mak and mum. Mum's house is not really far actually. Lintas jalan je and a few minutes walk dh sampai. Mum's house is the place where we were disciplined and mak's the place where we were spoiled I guess. Hey, I guess I'm blessed to be loved by two most loving women in the world. For that I am grateful.

~Signing off now

Gonna update my Spanish lesson podcasts on iPod. Have to do this or else I'm not gonna be able to sit for Spanish's final exam next week. If I don't sit for that exam, I'm gonna fail and my whole degree's gonna go poof!

~Bye

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Now playing: Cast of Rent - Will I
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P/S: Mum if you're reeding this, which I know you will, Happy Mother's day to you again and just know that I will always love you ;p

title is a title and a title is a title. . . (wha..what???)

2008-05-06T23:09:00.005+01:00

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Now playing: One Republic - All we are
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Believe it or not, I actually spend 2 hours trying to figure how to start my entry today. ~sigh

So how are things Amin?

Grrreat!!

I have my final examination for this spring semester in like 2 weeks and I am nowhere ready for that day. Got so many things to do that I couldn't find the time to revise anything yet. I'm praying that the last week is class-free so that I can take the whole week to study and as Dr. Grasby would say, digest the whole course before the final judgement. *shivers* Like I said in my previous entry I have a website due in a week time and I'm proud to say that it is almost done. I only have one more page left and the reference part. After that I'm free!!! That thing seriously take a lot of time outta my schedule. I feel like I can't do anything until I finished the site. ~urghhh!!! I used the university server so I don't think I anyone outside the uni is gonna be able to see it. Heck I can't even view it from my residence hall! I have to go to the library every time I wanna make some change on the page. Apparently, Opal One isn't in the university VPN or whatever they call it. I have to setup the connection myself before I can access the server. Its such a hassle to do all that and knowing my laptop's condition right now, I'd say the chance of me getting my work done in my room, would pretty much be about ~0.001% *its nought point nought nought one percent! * That's how the local say the number 0 instead of zero or the vowel o like we used to say in Malaysia. The first time I heard it was when I was in the physical lab with my partner. I don't know about others but that's all Greek to me. Ahahaha . . .

Speaking of which, next week would be my final lab week! Yay!!! You have no idea how tiring a lab session can be! It's so tiring!!! Be it physical, organic or inorganic. They're all the same. Take today for instance. The lab session was long *as usual* but today, instead of being tired of having too many things to do, we're tired because there's like nothing to do! I mean seriously!!! There were two reactions to be carried out and since we're doing in pairs, we split the experiment. After we got all the apparatus ready, pour in the reagents, we have to wait for like an hour before we can proceed to the next step! An hour!!! Serius bosan!!! My lab partner, Michaella, as with her usual self, finish like really early! And even myself, who always finish late given how much of a klutz I can be, finish early, with time to spare!!! The experiment was pretty easy but I bet the report is gonna be a pain in my neck!

But hey, I do feel a bit more confident doing experiments now compared to last semester. There's no more of that nagging voice in my head doubting every decision I made. I mean, as a chemist, I learn that you have to be confident and precise and alert at all times. You have to know when is the moment to be practical qualitatively and quantitatively. You have to know what you're doing, what compound you're using and how to handle the with care. Even after the experiment you have to consider where to dispose the waste from your experiments because a non-hazard compound can easily be hazardous once reacted with a certain compound. You're dealing with life-threatening compounds here like mercury, nickel and other metals that you have probably never heard before. Like today, we grind the product of our experiment, Bis-(N-propylsalicylideneaminato) Nickel(ii), to check for its magnetic moment made from the reaction of n-propylamine and Bis-(salicylaldehydato) Nickel(ii)!!! I sure have never heard of that before!

. . .

Wanna do something fun? Try saying the name and repeat like 10 times faster.

That's one tongue twister I can never do!

So yes, like I said, you HAVE to be alert.

*Chewahhh, speaking like a true chemist plak ;p*

Anyway, I think that's about it from me today. Gonna update tomorrow since its so late already and I'm so not gonna miss Dr Meijer's lecture tomorrow 'cause if I do, I'm gonna be bombarded with questions that I just know I can't answer, in my tutorial since he's both my personal tutor and academic tutor, who REGULARLY check for his tutee's attendance in his lecture!!!

~Bye

P/S: Good luck to all the jrs yg nak amik a-level nnt! Gambattane minna! =)

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A Belated Birthday Post...

2008-04-07T20:47:00.005+01:00

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Yesterday, April 6th was my birthday. My 21st birthday to be exact. ~sigh. I'm getting older. I remembered telling to my lab partner here, Wei Jing that I'm turning 21 this year. She was shocked 'cause according the her, I didn't look that old! I'm pretty sure she was sugar-coating because the right words would be that I don't look matured enough to be a 21 year old! Compared to the locals, we Malaysians do look small for our age I guess its in our gene

Anyway, celebrating birthday abroad feels somewhat different. I thought I'd be kinda like the same but turns out, its not. We didn't have any 'grand' celebration just a small gathering of close friends at a Chinese restaurant here, Noodle Inn. The food was great though I kept thinking of Malaysian cuisine aka 'mum's cooking' throughout the day. I had Sizzling Chicken with Black Bean Sauce and ramen. A big serving but nevertheless, I finished it all by myself all thanks to my big appetite. I may have gained a few pounds since I came here last October. *Dang!!!* After the meal, we all walked to the city centre for some sight-seeing considering that we haven't been to there for quite some time now. We used to go there a lot when we first came here. I guess we pretty got bored huh? Since it was already 4 when we got there, most of the stores have either closed or started shooing away their customers. So we walked to Millennium Gallery through Chapel Walk. I like Chapel Walk. Its an alleyway between rows of shops with cobblestone pavement that leads to the Lyceum and Crucible Theater beside the Central Library. Forgot to tell you that they bought me presents for my birthday. They got me this plate that says,

"You'll Always Be Our Friend,
You KNOW too much"

LOL. I was laughing my head off when I get the present! Okay, I know I like to gossip and all but seriously? Anyway, I think the best gift that I received yesterday fell from the sky. It snowed! Yes, it snowed yesterday but its not cold enough for the flake to settle down. So it turn to droplets of water as soon as it touched the ground. It was beautiful. It feels like you're in a snow globe. I was so happy because god knows how long I've been praying for it to snow! But hey, the weather's been very unpredictable these past few days. Sunny day in the morning and suddenly it went gloomy and the next thing you know, its snowing Weird huh??

The weirdest thing happened to me last week. It was about 12 and I was watching Here On Earth, an insanely sad movie by the way, while having my midnight snack when I looked across to the opposite apartment. You know what I saw? A totally NAKED man was wandering in his apartment!!!! *Arghhh, my eyes! My eyes!!!!!* It looked like he was looking for something but hello??? I know its your privacy but if you wanna walked around buck-naked in your house, at least have the decency to close the drape first!!!! But at least now I have my own Ugly-Naked-Guy! If you watched Friends, you'll know what I'm saying!

Anyway classes officially start today, April 7th. There was supposed to be a Scientific Writing lecture this morning but somehow the instructor didn't showed up. So I guess it was canceled. Went to Sainsbury for groceries got back and took a nap. I planned on waking up at 2 for the 3pm maths class but the alarm didn't go off! ~Arghhhh!!! Ended up sleeping until 4! Knowing myself, I just know I'd be having trouble sleeping tonight which would be a very bad thing 'cause tomorrow's lab and I need all the strength I have. I got up, went to Boots and bought myself some sleeping pills. To tell you the truth, I was kinda afraid of taking the pills just now. Don't know why? Anyway, I think the pills are starting to take its effect know. I'm feeling kinda drowsy now. So I guess that's my cue.

Until then,

Cheers.

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Lamenye tak menulis...

2008-04-04T03:26:00.011+01:00

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Wahahaha I'm back!!! Yes that's right folk! After a long break I'm finally back to ramble and rant in this blog'o mine! You don't seriously think I'm gonna stop writing do you? Just because I went on a sabbatical for a few weeks don't mean that I'm gonna stop writing at all! You aint see the end of me yet . . . Sorry bad joke

Honest to god though, I missed this place. I feels lie a really long time since the last time I came here. That doesn't mean I didn't keep track of my fellow bloggers. I did. I read all the entries from you guys to see what's been going on in your life. I just couldn't bring myself to type an entry or two. I wanna say I'm busy but hey, we all know how lame that can sound right? Its not like I don't have anything to write. I have so many things that I wanted to share but there seems to be some 'invisible' wall that keep blocking me from writing. A lot has happened this past few weeks and every time I found something interesting to talk about, I couldn't seem to find the right words to describe it. I would end up staring blankly at this page for hours and in the end, I would just give up. What pisses me off is that the idea seem to come when I'm usually in odd places like on the tram, in the toilet while showering or when I ate my lunch. Places where I have no access to pen and notepad! ~Sheesh. But fear not 'cause I'm back. Alive and kicking!!!

So what's new with Amin? Heh, nothing much. I become really busy this semester with a very tight schedule! With 70 credit hour this semester, I have more work to be done in a week compared to last semester. I used to complaint that I don't have enough time to do work last semester but not anymore. You see, I develop a new system to manage my time efficiently *cehh poyo!* Every week we are given 5 tutorial question to be handed out for the next session and each of the question is taken from each of 5 lectures of core chemistry we have throughout the week. So now, I would do each question the day I finished that lecture, while I can still remember the facts from the morning's lecture, instead of waiting until the end of the week to do all the question at the same time. The same goes with the post-lab assignments. Every Tuesday, I would stay back at the library until about 9 pm to finish the report of the experiment that day and of course, it would depend on the difficulty level of the report. Some report would require you to make an extensive research so I would give it 2 days top! And on Friday, while all the locals would celebrate the start of their weekend in a bar, I would drag my sorry a** to the IC to finish off any unfinished work so that I can have the whole weekend to indulge myself with whatever it is that I have in mind!!! Pretty neat huh? I like relaxing in the weekend without having to worry about my homework and stuff. So far its working pretty well.

Easter break is almost over. Most of my friends went out of Sheffield for the holiday. Ade yang pergi Prague, Spain and London. Me? Oh, I didn't go anywhere. I just stay here in my lovely room. I'm just not in the holiday mood. I don't know, I just don't feel like going anywhere this year. Ade yg kate rugi tak berjalan this year but chill okay! I'm gonna be here for a while and there will come a time for me to travel. But its still fun watching my friends pictures. They seem really happy! I did have fun this holiday. Burn came and stayed for about a week and we went out for some sight-seeing around Sheffield and also, I went to that Westlife concert I talked about in my previous entry. It was awesome!!! I can barely speak after the concert. I screamed at the top of my lung when they made their appearance on stage! It was surreal! Its different watching them singing live like that! The crowd was great. Not too wild and not too passive. I did record a video of them singing but I don't think I'll be posting it here anytime soon. You see, I was singing along when I captured that footage so, you can hear my voice singing, which is really bad and embarrassing! I have pictures though its not of good quality since my phone's camera is only 2 MP. But we did seat close to the stage! Like really close!!! They closed the concert with 'You Raise Me Up' which was so moving I'd dare say. But I prefer Josh Groban's version though.

Other than that, my holidays are filled with trips to the cinema. So frequent that I bought an unlimited movie pass that grants me to see the movie whenever I want for free. Provided that I pay the subscription fees of £12 per month. Movie tickets cost like £5 so if I watch like minimum 3 movies per month, it'd be totally worth it. So far, I watched like 5 to 6 movies per month without the pass. Now with the pass I can watch whatever soe and whenever I want!!! Muahahahahahaha!!! More about movies and music in my next entry. Speaking of which, I got myself a new best friend and I'm madly in love with him that I can't sleep without him by my side. He's so understanding and he sings to me all the time. He knows what my favorite music is and he serenades me and soothe me when I'm feeling blue. . .

So meet my new friend. . .

Meet Mr. iPod!!! Isn't he gorgeous??!!! I absolutely love him! It was love at first sight.

It was kinda spur of the moment when I read the ad of it on Argos. Great timing 'cause my old MP3 is giving me a headache with its constant need to reset the settings. I could just use my phone, which by the way has an internal memory of 8GB mind you! But that stupid phone decided to freeze when I put more than 3GB files in and the directory seem to go haywire with memory more than 4GB!!! Perfect, just purrr-fect!!! It gives me a reason to buy that iPod and I don't have to feel guilty! Now, I wish my laptop would have the same problem so that I can buy that insanely-gorgeous Macbook!!! Scratch that! Kang laptop ni meragam kang habis ak! Bukannye betul bende nie!! ;p

Anyway, I think that's it kot from me? Until next time.

Cheers!

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shut away. . .

2008-02-20T23:24:00.007Z

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I've known solitude

I know the solitude of one who has been shut away

I know happiness

The happiness felt when your friends come and rescue you

I know the terror

of watching others stabbing you

but fear not

for I will always stay by your side

no matter what . . .

-kuchiki rukia-

weather~ly blues?????

2008-01-31T23:11:00.001Z

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3 things I hate in about UK:-

1) the weather
2) the weather
3) the weather!!!!!

P/S: Still in exam week. I'm still in exam mode so there won't be any new entries for a while *and the fact that I'm just too lazy to whine here! *

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hujan oh hujan. . .

2008-01-18T09:55:00.001Z

Knape Sheffield asyik hujan je????? Its been drizzling all week long with the occasional downpour at night! Nak klua beli groceries pun malas!!! Warghhhhh!!! Bosannn!

Hujan je lebih, salji tak lagi! Benciiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tee-Ai-Ar-Ee-Di =)

2008-01-13T05:41:00.000Z

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I have approximately 10 more days before my final exam start. So what do I do in the meantime? I spend my days tweaking my friggin blog, slept until late in the afternoon and poring over the internet finding movie torrents to download! Hahahaha... Nahhh. I've learned my lesson so this time, I minimised the time I spent inside my room by paying a visit to the IC (Information Common) every night. In fact I just got back from there! The thing is, I can't seem to concentrate in the room where I'd be tempted to avert my eyes from the book, to the laptop's screen! Sometimes I'd just say to myself

"Okay, 5 minutes and that's it!"

But 5 minutes turns to 10 and 10 to 20 and before I knew it, an hour passed by!

Actually the main reason I've been going to the IC late at night is because Zila asked me to accompany her one day, and I said yes. We weren't planning on staying up late that day. We kinda joked about it at first but then we thought,

"Why shouldn't we?"

And so begins our daily routine for the past few days. *I think it's been a week already!* That place is so quiet. I'm not saying that my room isn't but there's just too much temptation for me to handle! We'd go there around 7 @ 8.00 pm and have our break at around 12 am. The place is usually packed with students around 8 @ 9 and by 12, most of them have gone back home already. After 12, we'd have the whole level to ourselves! Its fun! You can sit at the desk or just baring kat couch sambil baca nota! If you're tired, you always a grab a hot drink from Martin downstairs! Martin is actually the name of the vending machine at the food kiosk. I have never actually noticed it before but yesterday, while waiting for my coffee, I read that every machine from the company has a name and that one is Martin. Funny isn't? Now that I recalled there's one in the Union. I wonder what name will they give to that one? Rebecca? Oh oh Jenny! I like Jenny! Or maybe Heather!

I just finished the first-half of Physical, Organic and Inorganic chemistry. I haven't even started on Biology yet or Chemistry and the World Around Us! Crap!!! I forgot about Analytical Chemistry! Arghhhh!!! Malasnye!!!! Nak cuti lagik!!!! *Ungrateful being!* I'm actually worried about next semester. I think I did mention in the previous entry that next sem, I have 70 credit hours which means more work for me! Lets see, I have Chem and the Internet, language class and ooh World around us 2!!! Banyaknye!!! The others can choose between Internet and the language class but I can't, so when they were discussing about their options for next sem the other day, they asked me,

"Amin ko amik ape next sem? Internet ke Language?"

"Oh jangan risau. Ak ade dalam sume kelas korang"

"Oh lupa! Hahahaha. Padan muka ko!"

Warghhh!!! They all were pissed at me because I had a very relaxing semester and I kept rubbing it off on their face! Now look who's talking! Serves me right for being a pain in the arse!!!

Oh yeah most of the others had already bought the tickets for summer holiday. I still haven't bought mine partly because I still haven't decided the date yet and partly because I ...err...don't have enough cash. . . I'm gonna wait until KPM banked in our next allowance

You know what I've been dying to watch lately? Wicked! Yes, the Wicked theatrical performance tuh! I don't know why but I just felt like watching one right now. Lucky for me they still have that play up until September 2008. Great! Now I can watch it after the second sem's exam! Just before I go back home! Okay, so Wicked is actually about The Wicked Witch of the West from the The Wizard of Oz. This is before Dorothy drops in and the story of how the Wicked Witch of the West came to be. I watched the trailer on YouTube and fell in love instantly! The show has been going on for years now. The first production was in 2003 I think. More on Wicked here! The soundtrack's really good. I really like it. If you watch the trailer you'll see that the witch is actually Idina Menzel, and if you've watched Enchanted, you'll probably recognized her as Nancy, Patrick Dempsey's fiancee. *OMG, what am I doing here??? Googling for celebrities when I have so much to do??!!*

Okay enough. I'm gonna sign off now. God knows what crap I'm gonna write if I don't get my sleep! Take care and to my friends who have already started class, Good Luck and to my juniors,

Good Luck for Trial A-Level!

*Thank God I'm through with that!!! *

Ohh nak beli ticket konsert Westlife kat Sheffield nanti!!! Huahuahua

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5 in the morning. . .

2008-01-04T05:17:00.000Z

Bubbly - Colbie Caillat

Its approximately 5.25 am right now, why the hell am I not sound asleep like others? I've some trouble sleeping due to my flu *again??? And also, serious case of blocked nose right now!* also, I was awaken by this weird dream...okay not really dream, but this peculiar sensation of not being able to move any parts of your body but still remain very conscious of the fact that I'm like half paralysed. I think Kim mention it somewhere in one of her entries here. Just like her, its not the first time for me too. When it happened, you sorta feels like your blood suddenly gushed up towards your brain trying to get out like a geyser or something? I used to think it was a ghostly encounters but luckily for me, it wasn't after all! I'm glad there's a scientific explanation for this 'cause the fact that I just had a ghostly encounter in my room isn't exactly something to be looking forward to! I can't even deal with fictional ghost or horror movies!

*Urghh!!! I feel like throwing up for a sec...Scuse me*

You know, I've never really felt any homesickness before, but right now, I would give anything just to feel the comfort of home! I miss my family so damn much! Times like this makes me crave for mom's chicken soup or abang's silly jokes and even kakak's annoying comments! I wanna be back home. I miss my family. Maybe I need to be with somebody familiar in this strange land. Not that I don't see my friend at all, no. Its just that, its...different. I don't know how to put it into words but its just...different.

But, hell! I'm in so much pain now both physically and emotionally. My whole body is aching. My heart is grieving! Maybe what I need is company, cause after all, misery do loves company kan? Then again, come to think about it, we can never truly live without pain, unless you're a movie star like Bruce Willis *hint: Unbreakable ;p* Here's what I've found on the net. Some quotes I remembered from all those time I waste in front of the TV.

This one's from Grey's Anatomy;

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more. Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know, maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.

This one's from Brothers and Sisters;

There are no shortcuts in life...or in love. This pain must be felt, the alternative is much worse. Its what makes us special, what makes us beautiful, what makes us worthy...The pain of how we love. But the pain we felt is accompanied by something else, is it not? Hope. With pain there is hope. Now that is where we are, somewhere between agony and optimism and prayer. . . So you're human, you're alive and that...is what we have. . . .

Both are equally right but I'd prefer the latter. You can see the sense of acceptance in both quotes but the one in Grey's is more cynical while the other is a bit more unpretentious. Somewhere at the back of my mind, I just can't help but agreeing with them. Not that any of these is related with my current condition. I just feel like posting.

Ahh, its my blog! What the hell do I care!

Okay, I'm gonna get some good night sleep now or what's left of it anyway.

Oh by the way, this entry is a total random rant from me. Forgive me, but i tend to blab a lot when I'm sick.

Note to self: Never ever, write entries at this wee hours of the morning!!!

Signing off~

*think I'm gonna throw up again! (runs off to toilet!!!)*

Another year has passed. . .

2007-12-31T23:03:00.000Z

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Another year has gone, another book closed, a new leaf has turned, 2008 is finally here. It only dawned to me that tonight, is the last night is really, the last day of 2007. God I've been so occupied that I hadn't noticed this year is coming to an end. A lot has happened to me this year. Unaware of the moving tide of time, I walked on through the year and it was a worthwhile journey for me I'd say.

So much has happened this year that I forgot, earlier in 2007, I was only starting my last semester at INTEC and at that time, was busy with the impending A-Level trial. Thank God, I pulled through. Even with the breakdown, I'd still say I'm thankful. It really taught me that we have to be strong in life no matter what obstacles it hurls. You know, I have always thought of challenges and hurdles like a tin foil. They shape your life. They made you who you are right now.

June was when the real exam begin. It was tough and tiring but I'm glad its all over now. If I could turn back time, I'd probably say that's the ONE month I never want to re-live all over again! July was pretty much a holiday for me last year. I think its the only time of the year that I get to really relax. August wasn't much of relaxing month for me. The terror and the anxiety of waiting for the result was unbearable! It was really nerve-wrecking!

Come September, I was already busy with the pre-flight preparation only to find that I won't exactly be flying with the rest, given my health condition. It was a shocker. I mean, I've been looking forward to that very day ever since I got the scholarship. Don't be a hypocrite and say that you don't fantasize yourself going abroad when the chance is already right there in front of you! Yeah, I know, "Don't get your hopes up 'cause it might not come true" but still, you know you got the scholarship, it's just within your grasp kan? Just a lil'bit more effort and you're there! But that doesn't matter now 'cause I'm already here and its time for me to focus on my life and the rest of things in my To-do-in-life list. Its time to focus on the bigger picture of my life.

Around October, I finally managed to get to the UK. Hari-hari awalku menjejakkan kaki di bumi Britain ini. I still remember the day and how it felt, to finally be able to breathe the air and to finally be able to assure myself that I am here. That it wasn't a dream, that it is real.

And now, December is coming to its end, marking the end of this year, that has been a blessed for me, that sees through my ups and downs, that matures me and teach me another useful life lessons. I am grateful for a lot of things this year. My health, my success, my family and everything that happened to me. You know, there will be a moment in life, where you felt lost, and feels like its so unfair for the unfortunate things that happened to you. I'm not ashamed to admit that I felt that. I've been through it. I lost my way but I was so lucky that I didn't lose my faith. Because it was faith, the sure thing in my life, that brought me back to reality. Teaches me the virtue of patience and acceptance. That Allah doesn't burden you with tests that you can't handle. For that I am grateful. . .

So here's to a Happy New Year. Resolutions? I don't think I have any this year. I just want to take things one at a time right now. Embrace whatever it is that life throws at me. Learn how to handle things differently maybe. After all, I am turning 21 in a few moths. An age where I think, I'm old enough to think and act maturely and surely, rationally. I just hope this would be a prosperous year for me and for all.

So. . .

Happy New Year everyone.

May this be a good year for all of us . . .

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Ho Ho Ho . . .

2007-12-24T21:33:00.000Z

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Ever believe in love at first sight? The thing about love is that we're always blinded by it, no matter how experienced you claim you may be. Or, was it the people that's blind? Blaming love for all their foolish actions that we're condemned to believe that love isn't that pure or true. So what's this got to do with my entry? I have absolutely no idea. . .

I went to the cinema today and watched Enchanted. Its your basic fairy tale movie but with a little twist. Giselle, a girl who believes in love at first sight and just knows that someday, she will meet her prince charming. She's a typical Disney Princess, you know, the one who can talk to animals, sings and dance and her whole world is like filled with rainbows and butterfly, which by the way, is true since she's a cartoon character.

One day she was saved by her prince charming; Edward and they decided to get married right then. On her wedding day, she was pushed down a magic well by the prince's evil step mom and awoken in a real world! She was saved by ~~McDreamy~~ Robert, and as the story goes, she realized that she may have just found her real Prince Charming! So basically, its what will happened if Cinderella's having a second thought before her wedding day @ when she got the cold feet. . . Anyway, the movie was good. The soundtrack was absolutely amazing! Its funny and sweet. A happy ending of course. But I don't really think kids will like it. There's so much reality in it that it might be to complicated for them to understand.

You see, Giselle, she believes in love at first sight and she just knows that the guy is The One. . . Well I on the other hand, do not believe so. There's no such thing as love at first sight. Its lust.To love someone is to take them for everything they are made of. To give and take. To compromise for each other's flaws. To love someone, is to know them by your heart and to nurture the love, you need time. You can never be sure about someone because sometimes affection is a shy flower that takes time to blossom. You don't really expect to find your soul mate the first time you laid eyes on him/her. *Okay, so I do believe in the concept of soul mate, big deal!!!* I don't know if I'm right or wrong, but Islam did mention the concept of soul mate. Every woman comes from the rib of the man that she is destined to marry, just like Hawa from Adam's. Maybe there are those out there who really fell in love at first sight, and for them, I wish them a lifetime of happiness.

Nevertheless, I think I speak for every woman or every man that deep down in their heart, they still hope sometimes to just fell in love at the first sight no matter how negative they can be with the very idea of it. Well hey, we can dream, can't we?

Back to reality now! We all had a day out today just to kill the time. Its actually Sha's birthday so its a win-win situation. At first we planned on having a game of bowl but it was so packed, *and the fact that you have to book your place first and there won't be any empty lane until 8 pm!!* so we decided to catch a movie instead. We split into 2 groups since some of us have already watched Enchanted. The other group watch Alvin and the Chipmunks. Strangely enough, there isn't a single horror or action flicks on screen today. Maybe because its Christmas eve and people coming with their kids. I guess its the time for them to spend some quality time with their family huh? Anyway, the best thing about UK cinema is that the exit is the entrance we used, in other words, you're free to explore the whole cinema and sneak in other movies screening that day! There's no one checking for tickets or guarding the door so you're free! In fact I did snuck in one of the hall and catch a glimpse of 'Bee Movie'! Hehehe

I was surprised actually but then it dawned to me that people here wouldn't do something as uncivilized as sneaking into another hall that they didn't pay!!! This is where you integrity come into play. I mean, its like taking stuff that isn't yours kan? *And now I feel ashamed of myself!* Hahahaha . . . So after the movie, we went to Meadowhall to celebrate the birthday. That place was also packed! There were lotsa people doing some last minute Christmas shopping. I have this feeling that they purposely wait this late so that they can buy their stuff cheaply. I mean for real!! Seriously, the stores are knocking down prices like crazy! 75% & 80% off!!!

The celebration went well. They brought strawberry cheesecake and Chocolate Cake courtesy of Sainsbury! We also got like 26 packets of Walkers chips plus all the indian food from the food court! Since its Christmas eve, they closed the mall early so with no place to go, we went back to the bowling centre, which was just a few stops away by tram, hoping that there'd be a lane or two for us. Unfortunately, there was not a single lane for us and now, more and more people coming in! *mat saleh nie xde keje lain agaknye malam-malam raye nie, cubelah dok umah, Christmas dinner ke hape!* So we went back to the cinema and bought ourselves another ticket. This time its The Golden Compass and A Bee Movie! I picked TGC even though I've watched it before. It was okay. Complicated but okay. Its a trilogy, so you have to wait for the next movie some time next year kot?

Around 7 pm we all walked out of the cinema to the tram stop for the tram. After a few picture snapping, I began to wonder, why is this stop so damn lonely? There wasn't a single soul in sight! Its kinda spooky too because its already dark. Then I asked Faz. . .

"Faz ko penah tengok Resident Evil tak?"

"Hisy!!! Ko jangan!"

"Takdela, gelap die camnie kan? Spooky giler!"

Hahaha. . . takde kaitan pon dialog tu. Saje je nak emphasize keadaan time tu. And then,

"Jap-jap. Esok Christmas kan?"

"Ha'a. So?"

"Korang tak rase ke diorang stop tram operation awal hari nie?"

Everyone rushed to the board and GASP!!!

"HA'A!!!! SAMPAI KOL 7.30 JE!!!!"

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

We ended up taking the cab home from a bus stop that seem like a gazillion miles away from the tram stop! Again, we split into two groups and guess how much we had to pay? A freakin' £10!!! Extra £2 since its Christmas Eve. Originally, we planned on taking the bus but there was not any at that time. I texted the Bus Company to inquire about the next bus bound for City Center only to find that there won't be any for another 4 hours!!! Great, just great!!! But we still got back home safely and on the way, Sha told us,

"This is a birthday that I won't forget for the next 10 years!"

~sigh

That's good enough kot?

Hahahahaha

Ooh, before I go, here's a clip of Carrie Underwood's Ever ever after. End song for Enchanted!

Enjoy!!!

P/S: Kim if you're reading this, Merry Christmas to you!!! *And of course to others who celebrate christmas as well!*

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flu, flu go away, come again another day

2007-12-22T22:48:00.000Z

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Yay!!! Its Christmas Break!!! I was really looking forward to a long holiday. UK doesn't seem to have public holiday as much as Malaysia, so the term duration feels really long. I mean, back in Malaysia, we have so many break or a day off like the birthday of Agong or the state's King. Kinda relief now that I can stay up as long as I want. I slept around 7 am yesterday!!! Ahahaha. . . There's so much to do this holiday. We've been planning the trip to London and we're going some time after Christmas. Some of us have already gone for holiday! KA dah slamat sampai Glasgow dah, those going to PUISI have already started the programme some time last week , I think. Burn has already come back from his trip to Spain! Then again, different Uni have different term time, so that's why ada certain yang dah cuti and ada yang belum.

I actually am not feeling well right now. Flu, urghhh, I really hate it! I hate it when my nose is all runny and when I talk, the word fine comes out as 'find'! That's the sign you're having cold! The timing's just perfect! Just when I thought I can enjoy my holiday! The thing that I hate is that its not just the runny nose that bothers me, its everything! The pain in my jaw, the chest pain, the headaches! Arghh!!!

. . .

LOL Look at me, just a minor 'test' and already I have begun to whine! *Ishk3*

So right now, I'm officially alone in my flat. Rob has gone back last Thursday *if I'm not mistaken* and I didn't even get the chance to wish him Merry Christmas! Its just me and Punnet but he's going to York this evening, and EJ, god knows where he is right now! I rarely see him in the flat, but I talked to him once. He's a Law student here but he's studying in Leeds?!! *WHAT???* Apparently, he's been staying at his friend's house in Leeds and since his course is mainly involves self studying and reading courses, he used the library over there instead of here. Twisted kan? He doesn't really like Sheffield actually, so dia stay kat Leeds. He's a good fellow though, Irish and oddly enough, I can understand him more than Rob, whose northern accent is so thick, that I have to strain my ear and really focus on him whenever he talks.

Its kind creepy actually. Living alone in this block. Sometimes late at night you thought you heard sounds , like the flat's door opening, or someone's whisper when actually its the sound of the wind on the window. The other day, I could've sworn I saw something moving outside the window. I was in bed at that time, and didn't wear my glasses. So I put them on and to my relief, its just the mist. Pheww! *or was it the frost?* Better push all that nasty thoughts away, cause I'm gonna be alone for a month before they all come back.

The Malaysian Society held the AidilAdha feast today. Sadly, I didn't go 'cause it was raining and the fact that my world was spinning like crazy this morning! But there's another jamuan tomorrow, held by the Sheffield UMNO club. I think I'm gonna go but it depends on the condition. I seriously think that I won't be able to go out for the next few days. Urghh, please let me feel better before London! Think I'm gonna go and book an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. Its weird. Here, you have to make an appointment with your GP if you wanna be checked even if its just a normal cold. It usually take 4-5 days before the doctor actually sees you. Its weird because by that time, you flu would've gone and there's no need to see the doctor kan?

Anyway, I think I got to go now. I'm just using this entry to blab about my condition right now. Nothing worth to talk about really. Just another one of my endless whining! No biggie.

Till then, happy holidays!

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of clubs and labs. . .

2007-12-15T02:19:00.000Z

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Another week has gone and here I am, ready to ramble in this blog'o mine!

Friday. For most people here, its time to party. Time to forget all the hassle of the weekdays. Time where you can just drink your problem away . . . At least for most people. Not for me anyway. When everyone was busy getting ready for the night they've been waiting for, I went to the IC, cramming my already crammed head with formulas and facts and busy figuring out why the hell table salt has a CCP structure! That's life, what can I say

Some people choose to go out, I choose to stay in. Sometimes I envy them. The ever so carefree life they have. Often I wondered what it feels like to go to clubs, with all the disco light and the ever-so-deafening music and the people. But I think I can never go there. Not because of religious issues or whatsoever, its just that I don't really like crowded places and I probably can't stand the sound too. I think its more about your principle. Do you have the strength to resist the temptation? To go or not to go.

The weirdest thing happened to me just now, right after I got back fro the library. I was waiting for the lift in my block when suddenly a bloke *that's what the call a guy here kan?* came up to me. To my horror, he asked me out!

"Wanna come and join me mate? We're going to the club and kick off the night with a couple of beers"

*Damn the lift! Why does it have to go all the way to the 7th floor!*

*Time2 ak nak naik, time tula kau nak pegi tingkat 7 lah, 9 lah, hapelah!*

That night, I had the longest 2 minutes of my life! All the while I was hoping for the lift to come down as quickly as possible!

Of course I turned him down. I just hope he was drunk at that time. He was, holding a bottle of beer in his hand. Or maybe he pitied me because there I was, a bag of chips in one hand and my bag on the other hand, so obvious that I was from the library. Maybe he just though that I don't have a life to enjoy so he asked me out out of pity kan? Yea, maybe that's it. . . hurmmm I wanna say I'm flattered but truthfully, I was speechless.

Anyway last Tuesday I had the last practical session for this semester, the Fall Semester. I was all excited knowing that that day would be the last of which I would have to stand like FOREVER in that friggin lab, so excited that I just skimmed through the manual for the last experiment! That and the fact that its a pair assignment so I was kinda hoping that my lab partner would help me out. So Tuesday came . . . .

"Are we gonna do in pairs today?"

"Uhmm, yeah. It says so in the manual"

"Great, but I should warn you though, I'm really not into it today"

"Owh, why is that?"

"I'm a little hang-over so I better you do it before I messed up like last time"

*She didn't really say messed up but I prefer not saying the exact word she used. . . Eheheheheh... *

So the whole day, the experiment was a disaster! We ran all over the lab like a pair of headless chicken grabbing whatever reagent that was in sight! We over filled the quickfit flask with distilled water causing the solution to leak through the tube in Suba seal and I, with my clumsy hands spilled the crystallised material! Of all the day she picked that day!!! Urghhhhh!!!!! I was counting on her 'cause she's usually very focused in the lab. And she's really fast. I was always a step or two behind her during our individual experiment. Face it, all my classmates at INTEC know that I'm really slow in lab!~sigh

I still remember an incident at INTEC. We were supposed to measure the temperature of some solid after we heat it, in a boiler (i.e by putting the boiling tube in a water bath) so I did exactly as I was told and put the thermometer in. The strange thing was that instead of going up, the reading went down. So I asked Sha who sat in front of me during lab,

"Ei, knape ak punye reading turun eyh? Ak dah kacau lame dah nie."

"Ko tengok ko letak termometer tu kat mane?"

"Kat dalam air kan?"

"TAKLAH!!! Kene letak dalam solid tu!!!"

I looked up at her and laugh! I stopped doing the experiment immediately! Clearly, I screwed up! Amni, who sat beside me was already laughing!

"Aku dah nampak dah si Sidek ni buat salah dari tadi ak biar je, nak tengok sampai mane die confident buat experiment!"

Ahahaha. . . How I missed the good old days

So next week is the final week for this semester and then I got a month off before the final exam in January. Wheeheeee I planned on going to London for some sightseeing with a couple of friends. Some already bought a ticket to Glasgow but I don't think I'm up for it yet. Kinda have a lot of things to revise before the exam and things to worry about for next semester *70 credit hours!!! ~sigh*

Christmas is just around the corner and so does Aidil Adha. Actually Raya Haji would be on Wednesday *tomorrow!* so Slamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all!!!

(Note that I drafted this entry on Friday, December 14th)

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TGIF...

2007-12-08T16:54:00.000Z

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Rosie_thomas - it_...

Hurmmm...weekend is finally here! Nothing beats a relaxation weekend after a tiring long week. I made a plan earlier this weekend to finish up all the things that I couldn't do on weekdays. My plan is to finish my work by Sunday so that I can take a time off and go to the cinema for a movie and finish reading The Novice, which I had, last night. I'm now trying to get my hands on the last installment; The High Lord. I've spent so much of my allowances on books so ought to stop buying for now. At least until KPM bank-in the next allowance, which would be around next two weeks, if my memory served. ~sigh *Get a grip Amin!!!*

So now, after this entry, I'm gonna finish my tutorial and WebCT. An online quiz that would contribute to some of the final marks for this semester. You can easily score 20/20 for the quizzes as each students are allowed 5 attempts. Its all up to you whether you're in the mood or just plain lazy to get 20 marks. Some of the quizzes are hard though like the Coupling Spectroscopy. I stopped at the 3rd attempts with 17.4 marks! That one was friggin HARD!!! To hell with that! ~pfft Ohh, I had to do some laundry after this 'cause this is one of the time that the students don't hog the common room and the launderette. They usually hang around there on Sunday. Friday and Saturday would be the day they go out and get loads of alcohol and coming home drunk! Its par-tayyy time for them! TGIF kan?

I like Friday mainly because it marks the start of the weekend where you can just sit back and relax and enjoy the day. There's nothing more soothing than a cup of hot chocolate and a quality time with my books. Its also the day where I stayed up late to call my parents and family back in Malaysia Hehehehe... *So, I'm felling a little homesick, sue me! * Anyway, last night while waiting to call my parents, I stayed up to finish my book when suddenly I heard people shouting outside my window. I looked down and see a couple of guys arguing and a girl trying to calm them down. Then all of a sudden, the guys started punching and kicking and screaming at each other. It ended with one of them lying on the road, curled up! Poor guy

The point is that, this is not the first time. Just last week, a bunch of teenagers I think, were shouting and throwing beer bottles! That's when they're not drunk. Imagine what would happen if they were drunk? Ooohh...Nasty! After a while, I got used to it. The trick of getting a good night sleep is to get yourself a pair of ear plugs. It take all the noises away. *Including your alarm sound!!!*

Oh yeah, I bumped into someone very familiar while I was out in the town the other day. PC Wan!!! One of my archie junior at INTEC! I was doing some groceries shopping with Sha and Kai Chiat after class, and was on our way home when suddenly, I spotted a familiar face in the crowd! I was practically shouting and jumping at the sight of him!

"Oh My God PC!!!!!"

I think everyone was looking at us for my behaviour! *So typical of me!* I mean, I just got here in the UK and supposedly I wouldn't be seeing any of them for about a year kan?! I know he had an interview with the Cambridge University but I don't expect to find him here, in Sheffield! Of all the places?!!! It was a pleasant surprise. It's not like I've never bumped into another Malaysian here, its just that he's my junior! That's a surprise you won't see everyday kan?

Anyway, I got to go. Tonnes of things to do! But its okay. Only 2 more weeks and I'm gonna be on holiday. Christmas break is just around the corner guys! HO HO HO Merry Christmas!

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One year and still counting. . .

2007-12-01T20:11:00.000Z

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~sigh . . . *Looking at the archive* 3 posts in a month??! Boy, someone sure have been reallly productive! I just can't believe it. Was I so lazy that I can only compose 3 entries *And its not even a proper one!* last month?! Well, since today is my blogs anniversary, and given that New Year is only a few weeks away, I would like to make a resolution. Here's to more entries. At least 10 a month! Happy Birthday and may I have the strength to carry out my resolution.

I can't believe it has been a year since my first ever entry on Blogger. One year and still counting! I'm so happy that this blog remained alive and obviously still kicking, despite my absence last month. Truth to be told, I didn't expect this blog to hold on this long. I thought its just one of my infatuation *can't seem to find the right word for it.* I guess I never grew tired of this stuff huh? Thanks to all that has been reading this blog for so long. Thanks for the feedbacks and comment. Without you guys, I may not have survived until today

You know, looking back I see that so much has happened to me. Though my style of writing hasn't changed and I still write crappy entries, I can definitely improvement in myself as a person. Its been a wild ride for me and this little page has seen through it with me. The ups and downs of my life. Its a nice feeling you know, knowing that at the end of the day, you have someone or something to turn to. To confide everything, be it small or big, petty or serious. I can always say it here. For that I am thankful.

Happy 1st Anniversary Amin!!!

Save You - Matthew...

God I love this song! The melody's perfect. This guy's voice sounds really familiar though. I think I've heard it before in some band Don't you just love how sometimes a certain can really hit right at the spot! Like bhammm!!! All of a sudden you're forced to remember things that you don't even know happened to you or things that you thought you've forgotten already or better yet, things you don't want to remember. . . ~sigh

Speaking of music, I watched August Rush last Monday. It was amazing! I tell you, it really tugged my heartstrings! Despite all the crappy reviews I read on the net, I still think its a good movie. Maybe not fresh but still, its something worth remembering. The music score was superb and who would've known that Jonathan Rhys Meyers can sing! Basically its a story about a boy who thinks of every sound that he heard is a form of music. He lives in an orphanage, the boy that always get picked by the bullies *same old, same old* but he believes that his parents is alive and he believes that they can hear him if he 'reaches' out to them. One day he escapes from the orphanage and so begins his quest as a musical prodigy in the big city.

The opening was really good, kinda give me the goosebumps actually. The way the wind sounds and that haunting voice over, everything was just perfect. Although Freddie Highmore is a li'bit stiff, others weren't. Keri Russel was just amazing in that movie *I still remember her from her Felicity days* I love the part where she tries to look for her son but didn't know what his name is and the part where she looks at the board of missing children and knew instantly that the boy she was looking at, is his son. The ending was good. Not like any other cheeesy film where they reunite, hugs each other and walk hand in hand towards the sunset and all... *Urghhh...puke!* That is so cliche. All in all, it was a good movie and worth your time, at least for me. Then again, everyone knows I'm a sucker for this kind of movie . . . ~sigh I don't know about Malaysia, but they're still airing the movie in the UK. If you're so stingy or don't want to waste your precious time, you should try watching it online here. Got the link from my friend. They got tonnes of movies there. Old and new

So now one down, four more to go. I reckoned I could finished The Golden Compass and The Enchanted this weekend. TGC is already showing here but I missed The Enchanted *I was supposed to watch it last weekend but I went to the Nottingham Games* I'm actually looking forward to Grace is Gone, which would be on the big screen December 7th but I don't wanna get my hope too high. Sometimes the trailer can be so moving but the movie won't. Oh, yesterday I got 2 tickets for the premiere of The Kite Runner in Sheffield but sadly, I couldn't go because I had to attend a kenduri at my foster's parents house. I read the book before but only halfway 'cause I was busy with the flight preparation at that time. I wanted to bring the book to read it on the plane but forgot to pack it.

Anyway, life's been pretty much hectic for me these past few months. There's always work to do, notes to be revised, assignments to be submitted and all. You know, the same stuff. Life as a student is pretty much a routine that you easily grew tired to. Everyday you do the same thing all over again. Once in a while, something new comes in your way but it doesn't really stay long. Its like the winter breeze, cold and strong but only for a fleeting moment ~swoosh~

I guess I just have to get use to it. You know, learning to become a chemist can be a pain in the neck. Often I wondered, why did I ever signed up for this? But its fun nonetheless. Learning about the world in molecular perspective is really something even after all the migraine and banging of head on the desk. It forced you to look at things differently. It forced you to think critically and analytically even if you really suck at data handling! *cough-cough*

Okay, enough ranting. . . Time to get some rest. Hope this entry makes up for all the the absence. More stories of Nottingham games in my next entry.

Oooh goodie! I just finished downloading Heroes latest episode!!!! Thank god the internet here's fast *LIKE FREAKING FAST!!!* unlike *ehem2* Cemara-Akasia!!!

Ahahahaah Mira jangan marah ah ;p

Signing off!

Au revoir!

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Ramblings on a rainy Tuesday. . .

2007-11-20T21:56:00.000Z

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~Wheww. . . I'm beat! Gosh! Been a tiring day for me. You know people say that they hate Monday, they're having the Monday blues, still in the holiday mood. Well I'd say no! I hate Tuesday! Because Tuesday is the day I would have almost 8 hours of laboratory! Painful and excruciating. Imagine standing at the bench measuring solution, wearing rubber gloves, putting up with burnt hands and not to forget, for klutz like me, the broken glass. Take today for example, I broke around 5 lab apparatus! 5!!! Lucky they have a healthy supply of them all. Really! The lab assistant didn't really seem to mind, me coming to the front asking for beakers and measuring cylinders. Must have happened a lot here kan? The thing about lab is that, once you've finished your experiment, you thought, "That's it right?" 'It's finished.' Well, I tell you, It can never be finished! Now you have to deal with the post-lab assignment a.k.a Lab Report, and then there's next week pre-lab assignment to be completed, next week lab manual to be revised and yadaa yadaa yadaa! When will this ever end???!!! Sometimes I wonder, why did I ever signed up for this course? Oh yeah, the scholarship AMIN!!! Hahahaha . . .

Another thing about lab day that you'd hate is that, they suck all the energy out of you no matter how much Snickers Bar you ate for the lunch break! *I do think I'm getting fat from all this chocolate I ate! * Really! I'm not kidding! Every time after lab, around 5.00 pm, we would all go back to our hall talking so loud macam orang mabuk! All the way to the hall! In the dark of night *gelap cam kul 8 malam kat M'sia!* where people are rushing to get back home. After Maghrib, we usually will dine-out at one of the halal fast-food outlet they have here. I don't know about the others, but I certainly don't have the energy to do anything after our usual dinner. I would just sit back, read some book or just surf the net, of course, updating my safe haven here I couldn't find it in me the strength to revise back the lecture I had today or my tutorial for tomorrow. Ahh, what the heck, just come what may . . .

I planned on going to Leceister this weekend. Need a weekend getaway. I'm so bored now even with all this book and movies I had in my laptop. Just gonna visit Burn there. The say Leceister is not so big of a city like Sheffield, hurmmm. . .

I think I should put a book list here. I just finished Mitch Albom's For One More Day, currently, trying to read Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore. Seems like a good book, so I just grabbed it the other day. Who knows, maybe it'll go to my liking kan? Hehehe . . .

What else I've been doing all this while? Oh yeah, when I'm free, I watch Friends on the laptop. They're so funny I mean, I can never get bored with them. UK's channel is airing the old season of Friends, so one day I decided to watch it while berbuka puasa *a month ago kan?* Kinda make me missed the show, so I download it from the net. You just can't believe how fast the internet is here! Its like...FREAKING FAST!!! Tengok video kat Youtube pun laju je. Takde dah sangkut-sangkut!

I think I'm gonna sign off now. I'm actually trying to call my grandma in KL, so kinda have to wait until around 12.00 am which is roughly, around 8.00am Malaysia time. I really missed my family. Truly. You think that you can live by yourself here, that you know everything that you need to know and that how hard can it be kan? Well, I guess things aren't that easy here. All you have is yourself and of course, the company of your friends. But hey, its life? Want it or not, you have to face it in the end kan? So que sera sera . . .

~Signing off~

P/S: Entry ini memang sangat mengarut dan hanyalah bicara kosong dari penulis yang otaknya sudah 'beng' sebab terhidu ethyl acetate yg terlampau kuat baunya itu!

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Craps and total craps . . .

2007-11-15T19:53:00.000Z

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~Sigh . . . Long day for me today. Anyway, forgive me for the previous entry. Sorry for being so mushy and gushy. Didn't mean to. Sorta like spur of the moment thingy. I just felt like writing that down so there it was It was Tuesday, so I guess it must have come from all the stress of the lab work on that day. I have Chemistry Lab every Tuesday from 10.00 am till 5 pm! Imagine all the work I had to do! Ahhh, the pain!!! Sometimes I wonder, why did I ever signed up for this course?! Nothing much to say here, hence the title. I've been putting my work on hold. Watch out people, procrastinator on the MOVE!!! ~ARGHHH~ Sungguh malas.

Life here at Sheffield's good. So far. I just realized that I haven't said a thing about my life here! Still too malas lah. But for now, feast your eyes upon these trailers! My To-Watch list! Definitely gonna watch this after I finished all the subsids workshops!!!

Grace is Gone

National Treasure 2

Enchanted *The trailer is seriously funny!!!*

The Golden Compass

August Rush *Major goosebumps watching the trailer!!*

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Jendela ini . . .

2007-11-06T21:51:00.000Z

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Tatkala ini, hatiku terdetik kembali untuk menulis di ruangan kosong yang telah lama ku tinggalkan ini. Semalam, sebelum lena, terfikir aku dengan kehidupan ku disini. Tak ku sangka setelah sekian lama, akhirnya sampai juga aku di bumi asing ini. Semalam juga, genaplah sebulan aku berada di bumi Sheffield. Sebulan yang penuh bermakna. Teringat aku debaran menanti keputusan, bagaimana kalutnya duniaku saat doktor mengumumkan kondisi ku dahulu, betapa sedihnya mak saat aku memeluknya kali terakhir di lapangan terbang. Pantas. Pantas sungguh masa berlalu. Berlalu pergi begitu sahaja seakan-akan kehadiran ku tidak bermakna. Terkenang juga juga saat-saat aku menduduki SPM dahulu. 3 tahun sudah aku meninggalkan bangku pesekolahan. Rindu. Sungguh aku rindu segala kenangan yang seakan tercicir di celahan-celahan masa. Dan kerana kerinduan itulah,akan cuba kupungut cebisan-cebisan yang keciciran itu agar aku takkan kehilangannya lagi. . . Hidup diperantauan tidak seindah disangka, tapi akan ku gagahi jua selagi termampu. Dugaan? Tentu ada. Tak kira dimana pun kita berada. Aku redha. Manusia, hidup tak akan lengkap tanpa dugaan datang menimpa, menongkah arus kehidupan. Entah kenapa saat ini, hatiku terasa sayu. Sepoi angin malam Sheffield seakan-akan menyapa resah hatiku. Mungkin ulang tahun 'sebulan' kehidupanku disini mengundang nostalgia dan sayu. . . Jendela ini menjadi peneman setia. Seringkali aku luangkan masaku di jendela Opal ini. Terasa pandanganku luas saat aku melemparkan pandangan keluar jendela. Di tempat ini jugalah, selalu aku menyaksikan ragam kehidupan manusia disini. Tua, muda, hitam , putih. Tak kira bangsa mahupun warna, semuanya dengan ragam sendiri. Mabuk, sedar, suka, sedih, gembira, sayu. Semuanya sama. Saat ini, seorang ayah sedang mengangkat anaknya untuk didukung. Lantas dia bergerak laju sambil tangannya menutup kepala sang anak. Titis-titis hujan mula menunjukkan diri di muka jendela ini. Ahhh. . . hujan. Seakan-akan mengerti perasaan hati ini. Dingin angin malam Sheffield sekali lagi menyapa tubuhku. Pergilah angin. Bawa pergi sepi dan sayu hatiku ini. . . Biarkan aku keseorangan disini. . .

Bila awan berarak kelabu
langit biru hilang seri
lautan bergelora mencari arah
bersama-sama puisi dan tongkang itu...
hanyut malam menjadi saksi
bila puisi tenggelam sekali lagi
kini sendiri di dasar lautan
menyepi diri...hingga akhir zaman

Ini coretan puisi sepi terakhir
buat sebuah tongkang tersasar
tetapi bukan noktah penghujung
bahasa hati terus berjuang!

Klik sini

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Sheffy or Birmy?

2007-10-28T22:49:00.000Z

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Yay! Finally last Friday I managed to get out of Sheffield for the first time! I've been planning this trip for weeks and when the day came, I was so happy! Finally get to visit one of the places in the UK that I would like to go. I went to Birmingham with K.A and Sha. The plan was that all of us (i.e Sheffielders) would go there together but last week, on last minute notice, a few of us decided not to join the trip as they have other plan on that same weekend. The trip was actually to attend the AGM of MINES (Ministry of Education Scholars) and also for Birmingham's very own Eid Celebration. Since the rest of us here in Sheffield decided to bail out, I planned the journey for 3 person. Had to book bus tickets and stuff. Its quite efficient travelling in the UK actually. All you need is a computer with internet access and you're good to go! I mean, seriously! I booked 3 tickets last Wednesday to Birmingham online, checked the map to the coach station at Sheffield to collect the tickets and view the map of Birmingham to find the coach station, all at the same time! How efficient is that? Then again, I believe Malaysia is just as efficient as UK. Its just that when you're in your own country, you kinda know everything like the back of your hand *obviously!!!* so you don't need to rely on internet to book tickets and stuff.

So last Friday, after the oh-so-interesting Biology class ended, we went straight to our room to pack our things for the trip. Around 5.30~ish, K.A came to Opal One and we left the hall around 6 p.m, rushing as the station is quite far by foot. Lucky that we managed to reach the station just in the nick of time! Blame goes to Sha for her endless whining on her missing lip balm. The road to the station wasn't really crowded like it usually is. British people is kinda weird actually 'cause all of the shops are closed at 5.00 pm, including the shopping complex. And on weekends the would open the store late, like at 11.00 instead of 9.00 like they usually would on weekdays. The town is quite. . . dead on weekends. *mestila 'mati,' dah memalam minum banyak pastuh mabuk pastu memekak kat tepi tingkap ak menyanyi-nyanyi, terjerit-jerit! ;p*

Anyway, we board the bus and depart at 6.45 pm. Journey to Birmingham took approximately 2.5 hours. Sadly, we didn't get to enjoy the view along the journey as it was already dark *baru kol 6.35 ptg!* when the bus depart. We get to see though the night view of the out-skirts of Sheffield. More on that later. Around 9.00 p.m, we reached Birmingham and was greeted by Azwan. After about a year, I finally got the chance to see him. All this while, we've been communicating through blog and friendster, so meeting him, and all the other seniors, were kinda like the highlight of my event that day We were so lucky that Azwan and kak Rusya were kind enough to let us crash at their place. Azwan got a really nice place, mind you! *Unsur-unsur bodek disitu!!!* To tell you the truth, looking at the seniors house in Sheffield, I kinda expected the worst 'cause most of their house here are kinda shabby looking despite being spacious. Maybe because there aren't so many occupants in Azwan's house so the house looked neat and more organised. So the three of us stayed for a while at Azwan's for supper. It was very kind of him to prepare us some food kinda like a 'welcoming feast' *chehh* Right after supper, we walked a bit down Bristol Road to kak Rusya's house where Sha will be staying for the weekend. Turned out, she was cooking chicken Rendang for tomorrow's feast together with Marissa. It smelled great! I kinda have forgotten how rendang was supposed to smell like after living here for a while. *Gosh, I miss Malaysian cooking!!!*
The next day, we or rather, Sha, went to the AGM which was held at the Cadbury Room *Ke St Francis Hall?* in Birmingham University. Me and K.A planned on going at first but we kinda overslept and end up waking up at around 10.00 am when the meeting was held at 9.00 am We went only to send the food for the meeting's tea-break. So on the way to the uni we chatted about the on-goings of our lives in the UK and how stressful things at the Uni can be sometimes when suddenly we arrived at the back gate of Birmingham University. I was shocked! S.H.O.C.K.E.D!!! Birm is beautiful!!! Its like freaking beautiful and green and red and so arghhhhh!!! Birm is everything I wished Sheffield would be! *Bukan nak bodek tapi hakikat! * I'm not saying anything bad about Sheffield but still. . . TERGAMAM and TERKESIMA melihat keindahan and the serenity of the University. It looked like UiTM in a way. The whole department is in the University's vicinity. No need to walk outside of the campus except for one or two department. Its unbelievably beautiful! Maybe because its a bit far from the city but then again, its the same with Sheffield. Its not like I hate Sheffield or anything, its just that the two are very different. Maybe because I just got the UK and looking at Birm, I kinda noticed every little things when in reality, Sheffield isn't so bad at all kan? Makes sense tak? Hurmmm . . .

Okay! Enough details about Birm. At around 2.00 pm, I got ready with my complete set of 'baju melayu' and went to the Cadbury Room again and this time, together with those coming from Nottingham. Met kak Odey for the first time in what seems like years! She came by to Azwan's first together with her friends, and we then made our way to the Uni. The celebration went well. It was great even! I get meet the seniors from INTEC even those from the first batch. We had so much fun and there were a lot of camera flashes too. Well, its hard when you're the centre of attention*bajet giler!* The food was delicious. The crowd was friendly and I also get to meet those from my batch at other Uni even if we're the only first years from INTEC. The rest got something else to do. The rest from Sheffield weren't there 'cause they went to Oxford with other seniors. I don't exactly know the purpose of going, maybe its just for sight-seeing and mind you they get to go the staircase Harry first use when he got to Hogwarts and also the dining hall is just like in Harry's movies! After the feast, we went on a tour around the University, thanks to Taufiq. Thank you to him for putting up with our camera-loving attitude. ALEdians never say no to camera kan? Unfortunately I still couldn't paste the pics here since I still haven't receive any from K.A. I'll try and look if maybe I have one or two in my folders.

In front of Birmingham University's Clock Tower

That night, Azwan and the gang took us for a tour around the city center and again I was jealous! Seriously! He took us around the riverside where we get to see the night life of the local. There were coffee shops and bars by the riverside and also the Stadium where the played the All-England Badminton Tournament every year. It was so serene. The view, the light, the sea-breezeish feelling in the air. . . ~ahhhh We actually went for a movie that night. My first movie in the UK was; STARDUST!!!! Ehehehehe. . . The movie was actually quite good. Its not like the kind of fairy tale you'd expect. It was hilarious and sweet at the same time. According to Azwan, 'Fairy tale untuk orang tua mcm kite!' Seronok! More on movie experience later. We went back home after the movie by train and we stopped at the University station *Cam stesen University kat Putra LRT KL lah tu* which is right in the middle *Ke ujung? Tak ingat plak...* of Birmingham University. Even at night the view was breathtaking. We walked to Adam's, which is kinda like Aslan in Sheffield, and order our food. We didn't dine there. We dined at kak Rusya's apartment instead, since her flat is only consist of she and Marissa only so we got the kitchen to ourselves. We ate and talk and talk and talk. Details of conversation cannot be published because of security reason and because of the identified blog-stalkers I found out about a few weeks ago.

Night time at Birmingham. *Don't you just love these pics? ;p*

Anyway, moving on, we have the trip to Cadbury World the next morning. Only us from Sheffield went on this trip. We got up around 9.30 am (Sha actually woke up early!) and board the bus to Cadbury World. It was drizzling like crazy that day! Dahlah hujan, sesat pulak tuh. Yang pegi sume takde sense of direction and we end up asking the locals for direction! It was an experience. A funny one too. Basically where we're going is a place where they manufacture Cadbury chocolate. The place is called Bournville. The whole area around Bournville was actually developed using the money from Cadbury. They actually develop the area around for their workers settlement and facilities. Cadbury has actually been around for about 100 years! I didn't know that! The place in a way reminds me of PetroSains in KLCC. You walk along the place where you learn the history of chocolate making and how Cadbury came to be. The good thing was that they provide you chocolate while you're in there! So we 'munched' our way through the 'museum.' They have all these interactive games and hologram inside the place. The best thing about Cadbury World is of course the overly cheap Cadbury Chocolate! Every Cadbury chocolate you can imagine is there! We shopped like crazy! In the end I bought £20 worth of chocolates! *Bekalan setahun tuh!!!* Ahahahaha. . . We didn't get to go the other attractions there 'cause we're *or rather, I,* was afraid we might be late to catch our bus back to Sheffield. The other part of Cadbury World is actually the best of it all! The Essence. A place where you get to design your own chocolate with the flavour you want and its all free! Now I regret not going there! Never mind. There's always next time kan? Hehehehe. . .

In front of Cadbury World

Chocolatised version of ourselves

So that evening we board the bus back to Sheffield from Digbeth Coach Station after tersesat walaupun ditemani Tuan Rumah! We took the bus and arrived around 6.00 something. First thing we noticed. . . How much warmer Birmingham is compared to Sheffield ~sigh

So I guess that sums it all up. A trip to Birmingham. The first among the many to come. It was well worth it. We had so much fun. The host were really nice and we really feel welcomed *Bukan nak bodek okay!*

Second time?

. . . .

DEFINITELY!!!

~Signing off~

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titleless. . .

2007-10-23T21:06:00.000+01:00

Kosong. . .

Entah kenapa aku terpanggil untuk mencoret didalam bahasa Ibunda ku kali ini. Penat mungkin? Ya, mungkin kesesakan jadual 'Selasa' memenatkan aku dari segi mental dan fizikal.

Kosong. . .

Entah kenapa kali ini otak ku seakan tidak berfungsi untuk mentelaah segala nota dan laporan makmal ku yang aku rasakan seakan-akan hidup dan bertambah tingginya setiap hari.

Kosong. . .

Entah kenapa hatiku terasa kosong dikala ini. Terasa ingin merintih. Kenapa? Entah. Terasa ingin bersedih. Sungguh aku sedih tapi entah apa sebabnya.

Sejuk. . .

Malamku kini terasa dingin. Tidak sehangat malam-malamku sewaktu ku mula menjejakkan kaki ku di bumi Britain ini.

Sejuk. . .

Angin winter kini mula menyapa tatkala jiwaku kosong menambahkan lagi kesedihan di hatiku.
Dikala ini juga aku terpanggil untuk meluahkan segalanya.

Penat. . .

Terasa penatnya kini. Aku letih jasmani dan rohani.

Penat. . .

Hayunan kaki ku kini semakin longlai. Tidak seperti hari-hari awalku memulakan hidup di bumi asing ini. Aku penat.

Rindu. . .

Ya aku rindu. Di saat ini kenangan lama mula menggamit hatiku yang kosong ini. Ingin ku putar semula waktu agar dapat ku nikmati semuanya sekali lagi. . .

Mampukah aku?

Hanya Tuhan yang tahu . . .

~

It is human nature to look to the past,
to the road we have travelled,
to what so far has defined us,
But only by leaving our past behind us
can we then push onwards,
into an unknown tomorrow,
into the dawn of the future,
and into the light of the new beginning. . . .

Akhirnya (ii)...

2007-10-20T19:13:00.000+01:00

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I miss my friends . . . I really do. I was busy clicking pages, checking updates and approving comments on Friendster when I clicked Aneesah's page. She still has the AGD video. With the super-fast internet of Opal, I watched the video again for the umpteenth time. And it never fail to make me feel all mushy and sad I miss those good and occasionally bad times we had back then. When will we ever get back together like old times again, I don't know. The thing is, I kept wishing to go the UK to further my studies and to experience the real deal of college life when I was in INTEC but now, I really feel like going back. I miss my friends . . . We always take things for granted kan? No matter how much we deny it, we still do take things for granted. Its our nature, our habit. ~sigh

So picking up where we left off....

I arrived at Opal One around 6 something, just in time for Berbuka even though I didn't fast. I took a cab and arrived right in front of Laila and Zila! There were on their way from some. clothing store I think. I was so surprised! I saw 2 girls wearing tudung walking down the road when the cab slowed down in front of the pub near Opal. I knew instantly it was them! Tak banyak kan orang perempuan pakai tudung kat Sheffield nie. Tudung pulak memang style melayu! I took my key from the office and left my ever-so-heavy luggage in the room. They're going to Aslan, which is one of the Halal fast food outlet in Sheffield, kinda like McD but with healthier food like Kebabs and Pita bread. *Thank God. I can't live without fast food!!!* Finished unpack some time later that night.

The next day, they whisked me away to The Moor for beddings and some basic necessities shopping. The Moor is kinda like umm... Central Market but with more shops for home furnishing and Bookshops instead of art stalls. The funny thing was that they bought so much more stuff than I did! For Berbuka that day, they brought me to PMC *Pakistan Muslim Center, if I'm not mistaken...* There, I met my pet-family for the first time. But I was so surprised to see so many Malaysian there! Like over 100! Most of'em are post-graduates.

Went back to my room that night, get a good night sleep 'cause the next day, Sha took me to the car boot sale in the city centre. Car boot is like flea market where they sell stuff from the boot of their car, hence the name car-boot sales. The item sold is normally a used one. Basically, stuff they didn't want. You can find everything from clothes to books. The bigger the place is, the more item you can find. I bought 3 jackets for 3 pounds, a complete season of 'HEROES' for a mere 5 pounds and a table lamp for 1.50 pounds! Imagine that!!! Of course its a seond-hand item but hey, its worth it kan? Think of it like seringgit @ 2 ringgit je!

I registered with the University on Monday. It was tiring!!! Seriously! Why do they have to build it on a hilly land. I mean most of the time I have to climb like a steep hill to get to a department! Started at 9.00 am and only finished at half-past five! I took a 50-70 credit hours meaning that I have more free time in my first semester here than the second one. I wanted to take Spanish language but it was full for the Autumn Semester so I took French instead. I went to my first French class the next day and . . .

Como tu tappelle?

Crap!!! I don't understand this! Think Amin think!!!

Jemapelle Amin

*Sorry, couldn't find the right French alphabet*

~phew

Lucky that I thought of the word before. Heard it from some old movies I watched before. Buuut, I changed to Spanish the next day. Since Spanish is full, as mentioned before, I had to take the one in Spring Semester, hence the 50-70 credit hours. French was too tough for me! I haven't got a single clue of the language and most of the students in the have either learned French before or lied to the admission secretary about their French background! Hahahaha...Either way, I'm taking Spanish and I won't be having language exercises until early next year!

Owh yes, that Thursday, I learned that Raya is actually on the 12th instead of 13th. It was on Friday and of course, we have lecture on that day! I didn't know about this actually until Sha buzzed my intercom shouting

"RAYA ESOK!!!!"

"WHATTT?!!!"

I had just talked to my mum on the phone and told her that Raya would be on Saturday! ~sigh

That same night, Raya eve, the guys went to Takbir from house to house. They only went to those yang duduk luar. So those yang duduk Hall tak payah host but have to tag along with the seniors pergi rumah orang lain. The next day, donned with our Baju Raya, we went to PMC for Sembahyang Raya. Ponteng 1 lecture sebab nak pegi sembahyang raya After the prayer, we feast ourselves on the food provided by the post-grads. Dapatlah jugak kitorg makan juadah raya cam Lodeh, Ketupat and Rendang. They didn't prepare much 'cause everyone didn't have much time since it was on short-noticed. Takpe, asalkan dapat rase sikit dah lah.

Truth to be told, we didn't really mind much tak dapat raya macam biasa. Entahlah. Maybe because we came here prepared that this year's Raya won't be like the usual one we had before. So we're actually kinda happy together. No sad faces and no tears were shed that day. *Kejam giler bunyik!* After class that day, we all gathered at Laila's house *kitchen actually* to eat our Kuih Raya. We picked Laila's place because she shared the flat with Sue and her flat mates rarely go the kitchen. So dapur tu memangla dapur melayu

That very same day, I had to spend the night at my foster family's house in Pearce Road. Had to take the tram there. I went there with Sha and the whole family serbu rumah orang yang buat Open house the next day. Most of the post-grads live outside the city. There's one road, I think its Darnall Road, Darnall tu, dari 15 rumah kat situ, 10 rumah orang melayu! Rumah sebelah-sebelah pulak tu. Klaka betul. Klua rumah nie, masuk rumah tu. We went back home around 8. Hari Ahad tu, my foster family pulak buat Open House but I couldn't stay since I've so many work to finish. Kitorg *As in Sha and Me* stay malam tu and help them with all the preparations for the next day's Open House. I think that's about it kot. Hari Raya di Sheffield. It was fun. Of course you can't compare it with HOME but it was fun nevertheless. Dapat la jugak makan Malaysian Food since my cooking skills is next to nothing, so I really appreciate the food!

Okay. Got to go. Got to checked on my laundry. The laundrette is in Block E so have to go now. Dahlah sejuk malam nie!!! Seriously! Its cold and its not even winter yet! Will update later. Need to finish my pre-lab assignment, lab assignment and post-lab assignment! Banyak!!! I have lab on Tuesday from 10.00 am to 5.00 pm! Lama tak?

Hahahaha....

I'm so dead!

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mari bertindak...

2007-10-15T22:05:00.000+01:00

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Macam mane boleh lupe hari nie Blog Action Day??? Hari tu ingat nak promote tapi terlupe. More info about this can be found here. ~~Or you can just click on the logo on the upper right corner of this page.~~ Hope I'm not too late posting entry about this. By right, today's still October 15th. Anyway, the main reason is to raise awareness about environmental issues. I have nothing big to say on this matter, but that doesn't mean that I can't do anything to help the environment. There are tonnes of ways to protect and preserve our environment. More ways are being implemented as we speak. Its up to us whether to take part or not. You can even do it on small basis. Like recycling for instance. You can save thousands of trees by recycling your paper and buying recycled paper. Not just paper, glass and plastics can also be recycled. Ingat tak lagu iklan kitar semula tu?

Coklat untuk kaca, Biru kertas punya, tin untuk jingga dan plastik juga...

See?! Bila buang sampah jgn just buang. Bahagikan ikut jenis. Kat sini mmg ade tong-tong *in fact benda tu memang ade kat mane-mane kan?* tu so kalau kat residence hall memang kene buang sampah camtu.

When you're out shopping for groceries at the market, instead of using the proprietor's plastic bag, why not bring one of your own? That way, you can minimize the usage of plastic. Or better yet, use paper bag? Ask for paper bag whenever you pay for your purchase, provided that the store have some. Ingat lagi kat IKEA ada option to buy beg kertas tu. Kalau tak salah lah... besides of the attractiveness of paper bag *especially one from clothing store* its also environmental friendly kan?

Nevertheless, sometimes you have to be realistic too. Tak kan lah nak mintak paper bag bile beli barang kat kedai runcit blakang rumah kan? Mestilah kena pakai plastik bag kedai tu. But, just remember that you can still recycle Its not just about paper, plastic and glass. You can also save the environment by saving electricity and energy. Ingat tak iklan Adibah Nor tu?
Haaa...You can save energy by switching off lights that isn't being used or turn off running tap water. Selain menyelamatkan alam sekitar, boleh juga jimat bayar bil kan? Hahaha

All in all, memang banyak cara untuk kita menyelamatkan alam sekitar. Tak terkira banyaknya. Kalau banyak tapi takde implimentasi pun, tak guna jugak. Jadi, sama-sama lah kita berusaha menyelamatkan alam sekitar.

Save our home.

Take action.

If its not us, then who else.

Save the environment for a better future.

Ooooh, why don't I make this entry a tag? Don't worry, this is not of those post-it-or-else-you'll-die-of-freak-accident stuff. Just post anything you would like to say about the environment. Anything at all. So now I'm tagging anyone who reads this entry. Boleh???

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Bengangkah saya?!

2007-10-15T14:25:00.000+01:00

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I'm pissed. . .

Reaaaallly pissed!!!

What happened when Amin is 'bengang' when his request for his IBAN (International Bank Account Number) is not fulfilled?

He feel the need for a shopping spree.

He splurge himself on a pair of jeans at Topman.

He bought himself a bag full of stationery that he knew he wouldn't be needing any right now.

He heave a plastic bag full of chips, canned vege pasta, bagels and jam doughnut enough to feed his whole flat.

He went and bang on the back gate of his flat cursing the officer for locking the gate and made him walk up the front gate. *why do they have to lock it in broad daylight?!!!!*

He switch on his PC and complaint on his blog. . .

That's what happened when he's pissed . . . *ishk3*

~sigh

P/S: This isn't the continuation of my previous entry. Just some random ramblings.

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the unspoken

Happy New Year

Of feeling anxious and Parachute

Of wallet and blog

Movie goers = No life??

A Blue Bird...

Blog Entry 2.0

Blog entry 1.0

Breaking out

*Gasps!!*

Its that time again

Funny ads

I wanna sue my parents for the rights of own body...

Once...

Man in the mirror

I wonder...

Snowy night (how I wish)...

Three more to go!

stressed out!!!

A chip on the shoulder...

Ha Ha Ha...Happy New Year!!!

lost

I'm beat...

I . . . Don't Know

Who cares if I'm wasting my time here???

Sekalung Takziah Buat Sahabat. . .

Change is gonna come...

Maybe its the flu???

Raya ad this year

Selamat Hari Raya guys!!!

From where I'm standing...

Did you know, sir...? Then...?

Energy depletion. . . . . . . . .teeetttttttttt

I'm killing time!

News Update!

Tagged Entry 1.0

post-exam post?

s***

I want me cookie and me music!!! (ii)

Run Shay Run!

I want me cookie and me music!!!

DH is over guys!

Procrastination is never good ~sigh

I just love this song!

of classes and mother's day...

title is a title and a title is a title. . . (wha..what???)

A Belated Birthday Post...

Lamenye tak menulis...

shut away. . .

weather~ly blues?????

hujan oh hujan. . .

Tee-Ai-Ar-Ee-Di =)

5 in the morning. . .

Another year has passed. . .

Ho Ho Ho . . .

flu, flu go away, come again another day

of clubs and labs. . .

TGIF...

One year and still counting. . .

Ramblings on a rainy Tuesday. . .

Craps and total craps . . .

Jendela ini . . .

Sheffy or Birmy?

titleless. . .

Akhirnya (ii)...

mari bertindak...

Bengangkah saya?!

Gasps!!